Desolated~World

Bros meet up.!

2010-11-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

First of all, not all bros came down.. but I would say most of them came down.. Ys, Wc, Solo and Clement.. Went to chong pang market to have dinner.. Didnt know wad to eat.. Actually wanted to eat dumplings de.. but come to think of it, I have been having sore throat for days.. So I shouldnt eat sumthing that dry.. So I turn to the side and order cha chai fan.. Haha.. This freaking sore throat is not those I used to have, its those deep inside the throat, no matter how much water i drank it still hurts..

aftermath, we went to chamber.. Which was.. Whoa.. Been so long since I step into chamber.. haha.. Same atmostphere, dim lighting and cold air-con.. Hahas.. Kinda feel comfortable there.. Played DOTA.. Thou we only played 3 rounds and lost all 3 rounds.. but it was fun.. after playing we talked and laugh at each other's mistake.. haha.. FUN..

Now im back home blogging.. Still do feel guilty.. Guess its gonna follow mi all the way till the moment i stop breathing.. Anyway.. actually i do kinda feel good after blogging everything out.. cos theres actually no one i can turn to.. so.. last but not least.. " I'm a ASSHOLE "

Tata~

After a long break..

2010-11-19T16:30:00.003+08:00

I'm really sorry.. I know ur love for mi its true.. I know.. I really dunno wad else to say.. All I can say is my heart is never with mi, its with her.. All along its with her.. I jux couldnt get it back.. I might look happy, cheerful.. But I miss her.. really do miss her..

I appreciate the stars, the cups, the loves, the concern.. I once hope that I can actually fall in love with u.. But I couldnt.. I'm sorry.. I didnt mean to hurt u.. I'm a guy without a heart and i'm not worthy for ur love.. So all I can do is to let us remain as frens..

This is life.. A misses B, but B misses C and C loves D.. C and D are meant to be together, what B could do is to bless her with all the happiness.. A? B once tried to fall in love with A, but B couldnt because B heart is with C..

B to A: All B can say is sorry.. B was really touch with the stars u folded and gave mi.. B really tot he could forget C.. But am sorry, really very sorry.. B jux couldnt.. Hope we can keep in touch and remain as frens forever..

Never believe in love, friendship are always better.. Or being alone is the best solution..

Worst NightMare Ever..

2010-05-31T09:25:00.002+08:00

The worst NightMare I Ever Had.. Burst Out Crying Non-stop.. Almost skip a heart beat.. (Couldnt breath, ache in the chest)..

Ok here goes:

I was in the hospital, a normal check up for my leg.. With my mum, took train to and fro.. And maybe my leg keep didnt get well, the doc suspect that some thing was not right in my knee, and found out that I had Kuan Jie Yan, it was on both of my legs.. And doc suggest of doing an OP, if not i will have to go cripple the rest of my life.. So Mum n I decided to do the OP..

So Mum & I went home.. My family did everything as per normal.. But deep inside I know, if this operation goes wrong, sumthing wil happen to me.. So the very moment I saw my mum with the looks or worry, I Cried..

I even saw Daddy, but all he do in the dream was giving me that smile.. Those smile that chills mi into the bone.. Kinda like the its ur retribution..

Was out with Mei one day, went to have fun at arcade.. Then I decide to go back home, walking alone while Mei carried on playing.. Half way thru, "this part of the dream i kinda see before or dream before, jux familiar".. I saw my sugery doc (the one that did my check up and the same one that did the operation on my leg for the first time). Familiar part: I saw her, she was doing the unpacking/packing.. I walked over to her, to say hi.. After watching her pack/unpack her surgery tools, she offer to sent mi home with her car.. So I went up the car.. Now moving around (I jux find the route super familiar)..

Reached home, saw my mum, and I cried again.. And this time, my leg wont even move a single bit.. N the days was my surgery day.. Sitting on a dinning table, with my parents.. I kept crying non-stop, didnt know wad to do.. All my thought was if I die, my mum wont be living. Was so helpless.. I turned over to daddy, asking him wad should I do, n all he gave mi was a smile, again it chills me.. right untill the moment i even blog it.. Saw my mother side de uncles, aunties, cousins.. They kept asking mi not to cry, its ok jux an OP.. Nothings gonna go wrong..

Thats how I kept crying n crying untill I came back from the dream and couldnt stop crying.. Even if I dun cry, tears kept flowing..

Alright heres the wierd part: I said family, but my Elder Sis wasnt inside.. Didnt see her.. The route seems so familiar.. And Daddy's not around anymore, but he used to be a caring one, not that kind that will give mi the smile that chills me..

End of story..

Great!! I slept at 7am ++ The moment I fall asleep, I dreamt.. Woke up at 9.30am.. 2 and a half hours of sleep.. Right now, Im tired.. But I jux couldnt get myself to lie on that bed anymore..
Luckily my Mei is around.. I went to her crying non-stop, she woke up, An wei wo.. I told her about part of the story.. And after some time, it stopped..

Officially Missing You

2010-04-13T19:22:00.003+08:00

Officially Missing You (Cover Version) - Janice & SoniaO.A. Tamia

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And todayI’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby
It's safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Oh it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially missing you

Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

Memories Of Daddy..

2010-04-06T16:26:00.004+08:00

I hope to write down the memories of daddy, to always remember him..

When I was small, like maybe pri sch.. The tamiya car very pop.. He also never ask me, weather I a car to play or anything, he jux pass me $50 to go n buy a car I like..

He brought me a bicycle so that I can learn how to ride.. And I can ride back together with my mum..

During pri 5 jux after I learn how to ride a bicycle, he brought me up to the hill(block 200++).. Which he dun allow me to go up by myself because he was worried that I might get injured.. But after that night he bring me up, the next day I cycle up there on my own, he found out and gave me a scolding..

In sec sch, he worried about me going to sch.. Because it was a new sch and even tot its near to me, but its not to him.. He kept wanting to bring me to sch, but he got his work to take care of so he didnt..

Then there was once I ride the bicycle to a random place, which I went MIA for like few hours with my fren, end up when I go back, he scold mi, but again he was worried..

I was bad, noti and always making him angry.. But all he do was scolding.. But that is because he love me..

He even buy me a discman, which was freaking pop during that time.. He knows I always wanted to have 1.. So I ask me to go look at which 1 I like, and the price, then tell him, he will give mi money to buy.. And this was how I got my first discman..

Gameboy, He know I always go to the game shop to see see look look, even tot he was busy working.. And this is my father.. Love him.. He pass me the money, so that I can buy.. Then after buying, he even ask me, if the game was enough.. Still wanting to buy more game for me. but that was after promising to study hard.. This was how I got my first gameboy pocket..

Then gameboy advance, he saw alot of kids playing wif it.. And He ask me to go n buy, without thinking he have enough money for the family anot.. Which was.. ARGH.. I feel like crying now..

Then after I was in poly, and because his work and everything, I seldom see him.. Thus our chatting became lesser n lesser.. Whenever I never go to sch, he will scold me.. But again its for my own good.. And thus I pass and graduate.. He so wanted to attend my graduation things in sch, seeing me graduating.. But I told he its not worth it to off a day, to attend, because I myself find it stupid wasting time over there.. But right now, I regretted not going.. It might jux become a priceless memories.. During the holidays, he will always ask me to go out to work, not because he want me to give him money, but to earn money for myself, so I can buy things that I wanted.. And I will always remember this " Boy, u must go n work to buy things u want for urself.. Because papa cannot affort to".. But all I said was.. "ya la ya la" (tearing flowing down)..

The first day when I got enlisted into national service.. He and mummy accompany me to tekong.. Worried about am I able to get used to the life inside.. The both of them nearly tear up.. And I told them I will be alright.. dun worry, I will give them a call.. Then as time pass, I spring my ankle during route march, both of them are so worried, wanting to bring mi to doc..

Then the recent one was, I tore my ligement during I was at sispec camp.. Luckily, he came to fetch me back home.. even tot some scolding.. But its for my own good, y didnt I take care of myself..

Then I went for the op @ 9 of feb.. My dad, mum and mei acc me.. Waited for the poor sickening 3 hours.. Then my sis n brother in law joined. Then watch beside my bed, worrying.. After a day, I can go home already, they fetch me home..

Resting at home, daddy kept worrying about me getting hungry, keep asking me wan milo anot.. "Ah boy, u hungry anot, want drink milo anot? Papa make for u" But I kept laughing, saying " aiyo papa, dun need worry de, if i hungry will tell u de.." I know im a asshole.. Freaking shit..

And even during the time when daddy was inside, I never actually have a good talk with him, because the nurse dun allow me to go in.. My biggest regret.. Hais..

Regrets.. Full of regret.. Hais.. Can all this jux be a dream?? I jux hope to have some1 by my side..

I WAN PAPA!! I REALLY MISS PAPA!! CAN I HAVE MY PAPA BACK?? GIVE MI BACK MY PAPA!!

Special Thanks To:
Alvin, Ys, Wei Chiang, Teow Kiat, Clement, Aaron kor kor & Cindy and family, Xiong & his GF Yiyun, Alvina, Wei jie. And everyone that came down to help.. Sry if i cant remember ur name because everything was a mess.. Shock.. Things jux go way too fast for me to cope..

Tiring Day.

2010-03-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

Went to the temple in the morning.. To Bai Bai for my dad and myself.. Then draw divine lot for my dad and myself.. As for my dad the lot wasnt that good.. But at least he will be safe and recover.. I really do hope so..!

As for myself I got a good lot.. Hmm.. theres a part that says: "There will be a couple, in love for a long time, but because of their parent(disallow), but because of the true love that touch their parents, and thus they went happily ever after.. Perseverance is the key..

WONDERING!!??!!??

Anyway today went to physio.. And $%#$%^#$%^#$%^$#$%$!! Kinda pissed off.. but its for my own good.. Went Im on my way back from physio, wasnt in good mood.. And so.. #$^%$^$^#$^#$^$^$$%^&$%^&^*!$%###..

U still have mi.. Dumb dumb..! Hais..

Differences

2010-03-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Sumthing i discover lately..

Can anyone tell me the meaning of friendship? What are friends for?

I been told that my frens around me are not good.. I tried to convince myself that is not the truth.. But slowly things started to show up..

When u need mi, u find mi.. N when I need u? Where r u? When i need someone to acc me.. Where r u? Nth.. I dunno which is right.. But right now, i've begin to learn to do thing alone, without u.. I know its being childish of me doing things this way.. I this is what I feel i should do.. Because I alway felt that Im being played with.. And I believe that things work both way.. Whenever u r there for me, i'll remember.. And no matter how tired I am, I tried my best to acc u.. But this seems to change lately.. It had becoming, when u need me to acc u, u'll call me.. But when i need u, i called u.. But always say those nice things saying u will acc me.. But hardly once the promise that are made are done.. As u all know, being someone who give too much and hardly get anything in return will get tired.. sooner or later.. I'll just freaking give up.. Let mi give u an example.. U told me, saying u will acc mi to the hospital.. Ask me to call u the next day.. But theres once i called u, even waited for u till im almost late.. n u told me u r tired, n wanted to sleep.. this happen not onli the first time.. So i told myself, its alright, u r always like this.. And this goes the second, third, etc.. I hate to say this.. But the friendship thingy.. Is slowly turning sour.. And I am serious about it.. As for the time being, I'll stop myself from meeting u.. Really.. I think I had enough.. Even tot someone once told me that frens are there to be li yong.. But how can me keep getting li yong, and u even did anything.. Things dun go natural.. no matter wad right now the word "bros" seems far far away from me..

As regarding my dad.. I've went over to visit him today alone.. Doc say his condition is stable.. Fever has gone down..Was rather relief.. Thus i went home.. Then my mum went over.. At night when she came back.. She told me, my dad's fever went back up.. Hais.. Please daddy.. Be strong.. We will be there with u.. And please forgive me not able to go visit u regularly.. U know I had problems walking.. So I'll try my best to visit u as much as possible.. Sorry..

Hais, can anyone tell me what to do??

Please.. Please be fine.. We are all waiting for u, So please recover faster..!

2010-03-25T22:42:00.003+08:00

Woke up rather late today.. My sweet little sister, cook mi magie mee when i woke up.. So sweet of her without mi asking her to do it.. She jux went to cook.. And the noodle was with meat balls.. NICE.! Then finished up the noodle, was watching TV in the room.. Then my house phone rang.. its from my mum.. She called the say my dad is in critical condition.. and wan us to get to the hospital asap.. this scared the shit out of me.. I quickly limp to my room grab my clothes and limp into the toliet.. Quickly get washed up, prepare to go out.. Then my mum got home, she change her clothes and we headed to the hospital..

At that moment.. I dunno y, i didnt felt sad but instead I felt sharp pain in my heart.. Maybe was because of the shocked, i didnt know wad to do.. Wierd.! Normally I would listen to my MP3 of sumthing.. But i didnt, wasnt in the mood to do anything except staring at the cars and road..

Got to the hospital.. Was my dad, he was breathing so heavily.. So the doc suggested to put a tube in, so he would be able to breath better.. But my dad didnt want it, #1 its painful, #2 he say he might not get use to it. After some time of comforting, he agreed. So we went out..

Then the nurse told us, they have to tied my dad's hand so when he wakes up, he wont be able to try to pull the tube out.. Then we headed outside to have a sit n waited.. Then was worried, so the first time was both my sis went in to check, if the docs are done.. No..
Then the second time, was mi and my little sis went to check.. The curtain are still closed up.. And my sis told mi, jux now when both my sis are there, they saw my dad straggeling while the docs are putting the tube in.. Blood and everything.. I wanted to cry.. But I control myself not to, because if i start, everyone else will.. And i didnt that..

Then we went for dinner, at a place nearby.. N we went back.. This time the curtain are open up.. Saw my dad sleeping, with the tube inside his mouth.. I serious wanted to cry at the freaking moment i saw him.. I can feel that it super painful.. But luckily his condition got slighty better..
we spoke to the doc, he told us that, they had given him, the meds and everything they could do.. Now is up to my dad to fight the virus.. Please Please Please.. U'll HAVE TO GET BETTER..! For urself and for our sake..! PLEASE! I BEG U! U have to come back home to NAG at me, for not sleeping, staying up till so late..

Im going to see him tml again.. To get update about his condition.. He'll be fine.. He'll be fine.. He'll will be fine..

Please if u feel sick, quickly get urself med from the docs.. Dun wait till things get worst and start worrying..

Daddy be strong.. All of us are waiting for u to come back home.. Laughter are waiting, Im waiting for u to come back to scold mi loud n clear.. Please.. U have to be strong..

Movie

2010-03-20T18:16:00.002+08:00

Watch "How To Freaking Train Ur Dragon.!" 3D.. I would say its a good show.. The show was understandable.. The Ang Mo also understandable.. LOL.. Was a rather good story, Parts of it were so dam Cute, Funny, Touching.. Graphics was of cos good.. xD Never regretted watching the show.. ^^

My Heart is where U BELONG.. Okay, Random.. =p

Sleepy.. Yesterday play game till morning like 8am plus plus.. Went down get noodles for my MUMMY.! Eat then went to bed at like 9am ++.. Siansation.. Woke up at 12pm ++, reason was my mei was getting prepared to go out, she on the song like nobody business.. Then ask mi siam here siam there.. Buay Tahan.. Woke up play computer till like now.. Aw.. Eyes are closing.. But if I sleep now, OMGosh lata no need to sleep again le.. Cannot so right now must Tahan.. Till its time for mi to sleep till tml morning..

Alright=p I super wanna watch "Curse Of The Titans".. Because recently was reading Percy Jackson's series (Books), "*Please dun be surprise, that I read, Aw come ON.*" Right now I am like very into the Myths (Greek Gods).. Interesting..

SOooo... Anyone wants to watch "Curse Of The Titans" with me?? =p "Call mi" xD (I will be watch it with "Xiao Bai & his GF" "*I guess if nths goes wrong.*". And WHOS WITH ME??

eheheh, someone like moody ar..! xin qing bu hao, must say ar.. Fren will be there to listen de hor..! Dun keep keep keep, lata fall sick ar..! Okay larhz, I know I super KPO! OKOK!

Shall Stop here lerhz.. If not kena NAGGGG!! LOL.. *WHo dare to NAG mi?* Imma Smack the person* LOL! Take Care Peezzs..! Ti~Dos!~!~!~!

Nth else to do.. -.-

2010-03-17T18:07:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. sry about the post tittle.. Im lazy to think..

Anyway I've been watching "Yuan Lai Wo Bu Shuai".. Funny yet Touching.. While watching the show, felt kinda sad.. Memories kept flowing back.. But as u can see.. Im kinda recovered le.. So wont cry anymore.. Now that I've finish the show.. OMGosh.. Nth to do le.. Zzz.. Maybe find another show to watch or sumthing..

I seriously miss Gu Wa Zai.. Tat time watch it on MIO.. OMG!! Touching.. !!
Ok, done wif the video n movie thingy..

Hmm.. Liqun: eh.. u all outing for cycling.. !! (Never Jio mi..) Lol.. "ok la, I know I cant go, so u all didnt jio mi".

I know u r having some difficult time right now.. N Im unable to do anything to help.. But whenever u need someone to talk to.. I will try my best to be there for u.. So Cheer Up alright.. All the best.!

I wanna go Sing.. Kbox, PartyWorld.. Sing till my throat explode..! Hais..
Alright gtg.. Tidos..!~

Past, Now, Future

2010-03-13T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hee.. Long time didnt blog le.. xD

Hmm.. Basically, I undergo an operation on my leggy.. Cos I injured.. Tore my right knee ligement.. Now I had these few beautiful scars on my leg.. Lol.. Painful >.<..

Hmm, its been almost a month after the operation.. But it still hurts.. N most importantly the doc says the faster person that recover, need at least half a year in order to be able to run.. Which is like.. :( Sad.. Means I cant bball untill then.. But it better than nth.. Imma go train up when I recover.. xD

Special Thanks: Lesley, for praying for mi, really big thanks.. Clement, Aaron aka er ke, Wei Chiang, Yongsheng, Teow Kiat, Xiong for visiting mi during CNY.. Bear, Liqun, See Yeo, for wishing mi Speedy recovery.. Hope n wish every1 is doing good..

Life been good disturbing frens n all.. "Wake up to pee le.." xD Slacking at home, play games, watch video.. Listening to songs.. Sing when nobody is around.. Meet up with frens for lunch & dinner.. Talking cock wif my sis.. Playing with my niece "Yu Tong" she is seriously so dam cute larhz.. hahas.. Make mi laugh my ass off.. lol.. That time my mum brought her a ballon dog with ears n legs, she was so happy n when playing with the ballon dog in the room while I was watching tv in the living room.. So funny, after awhile, she carry the little dog out laughing loudly.. She was carrying her dog, but go the legs and the ear tear out.. Lol.. Not even a day.. Then I ask my mum wad happen, she was playing wif the dog, riding the ballon dog pulling the ear.. "KokoBei" then she fell on the bed, cos she lost balance and got the ear tear out.. LOL! Then dunno y one of the dog's leg fell out, then my mum saw it, and my mum was playing wif the leg, tong tong see my mum play wif the leg like very fun, then she tear out another leg from the ballon dog n started playing with it.. LMAO!! Super funny.. Yet she can still laugh so loudly.. Lol.. CUTE!

Guess tml shes coming.. Gonna play wif her again.. Lol.. Shes our little kai xin Guo..! With her around u will nv have a peaceful time.. Cos she will keep making noise.. Making a mess.. Lol.. But seriously she super cute.. Miss her..!

Untill now, I haven go clubbing before, after I recover, any1 wanna go clubbing wif mi? Lol.. I wanna go see see look look.. Or go Pub for some celebration.. xD Miss u guys..

Yeah Yeah, I know I owe u ppl outing.. Lesley, Liqun and See Yeo.. No worries alright.. Imma meet u guys after I recover.. I wont run de.. xD Miss u guys too.. Make sure when u guys meet mi, imma suan u all till i happy, since so long didnt suan u all le.. Lol.. hahas..

Ok.. guess its long enough.. Imma stop here le.. xD Stay cute n happy always..! Take care.!!

Yuppie..!! Pain!!

2010-02-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

Eh.. after so long didnt blog.. guess i should blog for jux abit.. hmm.. basically, I've done my operation le.. Its done on the 9th of feb.. So today is the third day after the operation.. n its still kinda numb, because they inject the nerve block for mi!! My leg is protect wif this bracer.. to restrict my kneee from twisting.. I will take a pic of my leggy.. and post it.. but see when i feel like taking a photo larhz.. haha.. Eh.. anyway i shall describe the pain.. basically on the first night after the operation, even tot I had pain killers, and the nerve block thingy.. its still hurt and is those kind of pain that make my tears drop.. Buai Tahan.. really tears drop.. keep dropping..!

Haha.. this is how my cny gonna go like..
ROT at Home.. after 5 mins Rot again.. And Rot again.. And ROT N ROT N ROT.. lmao..

Anyway Im going for physio therpy on the 18th of feb @ alexander hospital in the monring like 9.50am.. Lol.. Then afternoon gonna go to JMC aka jurong medical center.. To remove the strings on my leggy.. GG!!!

Today dunno y hor, play wad lose wad.. Maybe im a loser.. xD Dam sick of losing.. But the more I lose the more I want to win.. Fighting spirit hor.. xD (u will be thinking im retart or crazy etc..)

Lol.. laugh lor.. u all happy can liao.. I dun mind de.. Can make u all happy also no as bad larhz..
Hee.. ok la.. type till sian liao.. tata~~ Take good kare ppls.. We'll update again.. ~Maybe~ dunno when..!! xD

Sign off..
Alan aka NubCake.. !! xD

My Big Day..!

2010-01-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Its done booking the sugery date n time.. Its.. Dong~dong~Dong~dong..! 19/jan/2010 @ alexander hospital.. And i need to report to ward 1 by 8am in the morning.. Phew.. gonna be warded for 1 day.. zzZzz.. First time in my life being warded in hospital.. Shit lor..

Anyway right now, I'll be on MC till 18 jan.. Tehee.. So basically the doc told me the surgery is to help mi stablise my knee/leg cos the ligement is tore.. Then she has to harvest my hamstring dunno wad, then drill thru my bone to so called "tied" the screw to my knee.. So my knee will be stable again..

Sian.. Im sick now.. Keep feeling cold, but no fever.. Headache, running nose, sneeze, sore throat, cough.. Everything jux come together.. Kaos.. Dam xin gu larhz.. Sian.. Thanks ys for buying mi lunch yesterday..

Imma sick bird, so imma go rest now.. Take kare ppl, looking forward to the day im able to play bball again.. tata~~

Unpredictable!!

2010-01-04T23:08:00.002+08:00

Life is jux so unpredictable.. Am I right?? Be thankful to everything that is given to u.. Be thankful in the morning that u are still able to see the sun rising setting.. Even if u r in deep shit, be glad and be thankful that the shit never get shitter.. And as i've always said, cherish every person every thing that passes ur life.. It might be shit(worst things, person).. But is doesnt its bad.. For example, u step on a shit, but ended up u found someone u really love n is able to go on with u for the rest of ur life.. Is this still shit?? U might think im bull shitting.. But be thankful that u step on the shit, when there might be someone else fell down with the face to the shit.. But without going thru shit, u wont actually know wad shit is really SHIT.. So.. wad are u waiting for?? Eat shit dude.. xD okay la.. the last sentance is bull shit.. and I know..

Anyway, went for physo @ alexander hopstial.. And without going there, I dun even know my injure leg actually got smaller.. reason because I didnt use that leg muscle due to the pain.. And this shit is.. ARGHH!! Then how am I able to play bball again?? I AM SURE IM NOT GOING TO LET THIS HAPPEN.. Imma trash those asshole out there once again.. but tats after my surgery.. ^^ ~~Always look on the bright side of life..~~ lalalalala~~

Being able to forgive n forget is sumthing that is priceless.. That needs courage and understanding. So.. Imma learn how too..

Hey, I jux watch Hai Pai Tian Xin.. Aw.. There was a part that is so sweet, that make mi smile without knowing it.. But it was short.. Hais, and the next moment my tears drop.. Aw.. so unpredictable.. Anyway is good, at least I know i do still have feelings.. Hee.. Watched it.. Its so dam nice..

This wed shall be my big day again.. Im going to JMC once again, to book n appointment for my leg surgery.. And my MC ends on that day, Im GOING BACK TO CAMP..! SADness.. SUX!

Hee.. complaint finish liao.. TATA~~ Gonna go enjoy my time before I go in camp.. Hee.. All the best peez..!!

Desolated World..

2010-01-03T15:42:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Have u watch AVATAR?? if u haven, u better watch it.. The show is so dam cool.. With high tech equipments, graphics.. Especially the scenery.. WOW..! Story line, not bad.. I do hope I can be 1 of the sleep walker.. Cos everything can start anew.. New world, new life, new frens, new things. Its jux so cool..

Eh.. didnt blog of ages.. So after all this days, I guess im fine once again.. Living happily.. Playing happily.. Eating happily.. Sleeping happily.. Except the fact that I slept onli in the morning.. Lmao.. Wei jie says hes gonna come down to yishun lata on.. Seriously dunno what he wanna do.. But guess meeting a long time no see fren isint that bad right? lol..

Lovely Memories shall be kept alive, N Life still goes on n on happily ever after.. ^^

"sound rather ugly, but hope the meanings there.."

Imma go play my game already.. Hope u guys have lots of fun too..

"Saw ur pic, that time u go chiong de.. Haha, u jux look sooo pretty.. With that red butt on ur face.. lol.."

Wish Everybody out there in the world, a very happy belated new year n all the best in everything.. ^^

Buai buai..~~

Woah..!! Alvin, Chipmunks and Chipettes..!!

2009-12-26T15:19:00.002+08:00

Haha.. Watched Alvin and the chipmunks.. So dam cute larhz.. With the Chipettes too.. hahas.. Not much singing this time.. But its nice..!! "Let the pro show u how its done." Bang..!! TV gone le.. hahahaha..

Yesterday was watching TV, then heard this song Lion Heart from T-MAX.. Korean song.. But its actually a jap song.. Dam nice.. U guys should to listen.. ^^

Bored.. Till now my leg is still kinda of swollen.. Irritating.. :(

Weee.. L4D 2 Not bad leh.. Quite fun.. Enjoyed being RAPED!! No.. Should be GANG BANG!! lmao.. hahas.. If u haven try.. Go n try.. Things are much cooler than before.. But the weapon sux now.. BOBO Shooter!! lol..

Haha.. Watch Hi, my sweet heart.. (Chinese is 海派甜心).. Nice Nice.. The songs are even NICER!! Lol.. Hee..

I love u, U love mi, We are happy family..! With a Great Big Heart n A kiss from mi to u.. Wont u say u love mi too.. ^^

Alright.. finished Crapping already.. Well then..
tata~~

Blah blah blah..

2009-12-22T03:21:00.002+08:00

Been rather lazy recently.. Hmm.. Seem like she is having a good life.. Heex.. Good enough..

Im bored.. Seriously bored.. Y leg injured?? Zzzz.... Wanna put straight also cannot, bend also cannot.. WTF!!

Siansation, Horrible, terrible, vegetable..!!

Boom, Bomb.. Bahaha..!!

Alright enough..!! Heex..

Hmm.. Today I did ppt, for my work stuff larhz.. wah kaos..! didnt tell mi, wad the items is for then ask mi do ppt?? Kaos.. Sms the boss, also nv reply.. double Kaos.. (Kao Kao).. lmao.. So I didnt care much, I jux use what I think, and finish the ppt.. Heex.. Im from RP de leh.. PPT is nth.. Lmao.. Except that use openoffice is... "ok la ok la, not as bad as nth larhz.." Im use to microsoft office marhz.. So.. ya lor.. slowly will get used to it.. The ppt is full of crap.. Jux like last time in skool we did the social education thing.. is it social education? Cant remember, years ago le.. Wadever is sumthing education de.. The question is like: "if u see rubbish on the floor will u pick it up?" Answer: (in order to score high marks) "YES", but the fact is "Who will be that retard to fucking pick the rubbish?" Lmao.. CRAPZZZzzzz...

Life is.... !!!

eh.. cannot blame le.. I must be thankful that Im am still here able to blog, talk, crapz.. Only injured my leg, not broken or anything.. heex.. Thank you..!!

Opz.. today miss her again, then pi gu yang go disturb her by msg.. I shouldnt be doing this le larhz.. How can disturb ppl neh??

Doc: "U have too see open abit larhz.." (in chinese: Kan Kai Yi Dian)..
>.<: "Aiyo, born like tat bo pian ma..!"
>.<: "Then how much to do the operation?"
Doc: "Cheap cheap nia!"
>.<: "Cheap ar?? How Cheap??"
Doc: "Got $5, $50, which one u wan?"
>.<: "$5?? too cheap la.. Hao larhz (in english: ok larhz) I take the $50 de larhz.."
Doc: "Ok, alot of ppl also take $50 de.."
Doc: "Get rdy ar..! 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.!"
>.<: "Ouch.. Wtf.. Y u hit mi?? Pain lehx..!"
~~~~~~ >.< ======== 5.O ~~~~~~~~~~
5.O: "Woah.. Can see clearly already.."
5.O: "Thanks alot leh doc.."
5.O: "Oh doc, btw wad is the $5 de?"
Doc: "Orhz.. That 1 ar?"
~~~~~~ >.< ======== 5.< ~~~~~~~~~~
5.O: "WTF? like tat also can ar??"
Then 5.O fainted..~~

Hee.. Crapz.. Too bored le..

-.-: "oi, siao eh.. See wad see??"
>.<: "Siao? u can see mi, I cannot see u ar??"
-.-: "mai kan lim pei guai lan leh..!! Since when I see u?"
>.<: "Kaos.! u dun see mi, how u know I see u??
-.-: "Na bei, ur skin very Itchy ar!!??"
>.<: "Lol... Eyes very Itchy nia la.."
~~~Bing Bang Bong..~~~~
-.-: "Still itchy anot?? Siao lian eh.."
O.o: " Woah.. Not itchy liao le.. Can see clear clear somemore.."
O.o: "weee uuu weee..! (Wishle) Chio bu leh..!!"
~~~Bing Bong Bang~~~~
(O).O: "Woah.. Even Clearer..!!"

Heex.. Trying to be lame here.. Lol.. u mind find it lame, but it may jux brighten somebody's day.. ^^ Tata~~ Late le.. Gonna Sleep.. Nighty Night..!!

Failure makes me a stronger person.!

2009-12-18T22:39:00.003+08:00

Guess without having my leg injured, I wouldnt know bball is actually so important to me.. Without injuring my leg, guess I wouldnt know frens around me does care.. Without injuring my leg, I wouldnt know how important my leg is..

Guess going thru all this is part of my life.. Going thru the process of learning how to cherish things, family, frens.. especially to those who care.. To people who didnt know how things are important to them, u wont wanna go thru all this to learn how to cherish all the beautiful things around u..

Heehee.. dam stress now.. tons of things need to think about.. consider about..

who wan eat pig leg? i have 1 attach to me.. lmao.. (is this called gu zhong zhuo le?)

Once decided to do sumthing, never regret..

Thx for all the care n concern.. Never force urself to do sumthing u wouldnt enjoy.. time to emo liao.. hee.. xD

Take care... tata~~

Love my blog song.. Her voice is just to sweet.. like.. ^^

Tears just started to flow down..!

2009-12-17T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hais.. Injured my leg (knee) again.. Sad..

Im scare that I cannot ever play bball anymore.. Hais..

Do u know how it feels like when something I enjoy so much.. But unable to enjoy it anymore..

Life just sux.. issint it?

Bball is sumthing for me to see, to watch.. But nv able to touch again.. Im really scared..!

Why is life jux this way?

Cant even walk now.. Cripple.. Hais..

Dammit.. Feel like crying.. Feel like dying now.. Cherish what ever u have now.. dun even let go.. Or u will regret.. Once its gone.. its gone..

I made my family worried. I made my frens worried. I made everyone worried. Just feel so useless now.. FUCK!!

To my frens: Please enjoy the bball session for mi alright.. Big Thanks. Thanks ys n my mum for accing to hospital today morning..

I need to be alone.. I need a corner alone.. LEAVE ME ALONE..

ARGHH!!!

2009-12-16T14:55:00.000+08:00

DAMMIT!! ARGGHHH!! Im FUCKING PISSED OFF!!! FUCK OFF!!

Inspirational Quote

2009-12-15T01:55:00.002+08:00

"Ur happiness is all im concern."

In loving Memories..

2009-12-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

"The worst part of life is waiting. The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for."

I simply just love this phrase..

Hmm.. was reading some of the old post.. Things started flashing back.. All the loving memories.. OMG.. its just so sweet.. its not as bad to refreshing back those lovely memories.. hee..

Come to think of it.. I still have the dam long video taken at sentosa in my memory card.. See when I have to mood, I'll just extract it out.. Post it.. hahas.. Those was the most fun and lovely days I had in my life larhz.. Wont forget.. ^^

Looking at those old post made by her, or myself.. Isint that painful anymore.. Guess I recovered.. Left some slight crack waiting for recovery.. And guess wad, I got addictted for reading those post.. lol.. Looking at the cards and the photos in my cupboard, the rings in my bag, the duck on my bed.. everything.. Just feel so glad I still had them.. But the onli thing is the duckie is real real smelly and dirty.. Lol.. Yellow become grey le.. xD Memories I didnt wanted to washed away..

Tats y waiting for some1 is the worst part of life, but having some1 to wait for is just the best part of life.. Im sure I am contented for being able to have the feeling of waiting for some1 worth me waiting for..

Seriously I dunno should I wait or should I not wait.. Cos waiting alone myself, but the other party doesnt know, is just useless.. Just like Im waiting for ur reply.. Saying U will get back to me, but nth comes in the end.. Just another disappointment.. Guess im just not cut out to wait..

I just wanna have a stead/gf. Living a happy simple life, with her, with my family.. Having a job enough for living.. And I am contented.. Hee.. Dreaming again.. Lol.. This only happens in fairy tales.. Not in real life.. In life things can just become so ugly that u wont even know or want to face it.. humans can become so ugly that they change to another person which u dun even know..
Someone that misses so much, suddenly become a stranger..

Its so dam true about being a bad person is so much easier than being a good person.. Being bad theres nth to worry about, but becos u're good, u tend to worry too much, ended up being a idiot or a irritating person..

Lifes changes so quickly. U maybe alive now, but next moment u're maybe gone.. Who knows? So cherish everything n everyone u have.. Do everything without a single regret.. Somethings that are lost = things gain.. No pain no gain.. Becos the things gone thru, make wad u are now..
Spend time to the maximum..

Last but not least, I just hope u would spend a min of ur daily life to send mi just a sms saying "Im fine".

At last..!!

2009-12-13T12:30:00.002+08:00

Phew..!! At last the busy things are over.. hahas.. Happy marriage alright.. All the best..!

Wow, book out at 11pm again yesterday.. Got home like 12.30pm.. Shags..! Dam tired.. But its OVER!! xD

Hey.. I need to go shopping for some stuffs.. Like I wanna get myself a BAG.. few singlets.. few polo-tees.. And last but not least, is presents, for xmas n my sista de bday.. Seriously dunno wad to get.. hais.. Stress again.. Guess I should buy a present for the new married couple..!! hmm..?

Any1 wanna go shopping wif mi?? But i'll go bugis to hunt for my bag and clothes first.. then after that go hunt for presents..

Wow she reply n even pick up my calls.. So dam happy larhz.. But she was busy after that le.. no reply le.. anyway I'll just wait ba.. even tot i know hopeless.. xD tats mi larhz..

Ok la.. im freezing in my room.. So imma stop blogging le.. wanna living room to catch some heat.. xD Peez.. Im fine.. seriously im fine.. ^^ dun have to worry..
Tata~~

True..!

2009-12-11T22:04:00.003+08:00

"The worst part of life is waiting. The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for."

Tats y im waiting..!!

Im jux simply too tired.. Gonna drop dead soon.. Seriously, I was so darn happy that u was the first 1 to reply mi in the morning.. Was super tired de, but then after recieving ur sms.. My mood was just high up to the sky..

These few days are killing mi.. Tons n tons of work to be done.. Never ending.. So dun mind if I distress abit.. brb..!

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This 100 FUCK is for the shit I've been feeling recently, shit I did recently..! Feel so good now..! Back to normal..

Hmm.. Ps I wanted to do this long ago but still can tahan.. but now is like.. ARGH!! SHARK!! RUN!! SHIT.. DAMMIT!!

Ok.. This thurs I went to the MO, and was told that I will be downpes.. To C2, but dunno L wad.. And on the 23rd is my big "DAY" because I will be going to JMC, to comfirm for the operation on my Knee.. Reason I wanted to go for the OP, simply because I need to leg to fully funcationable.. So I can run, I can play bball, I can do wad ever I wan and plus I dun wanna wait till I get old n everything comes back.. So...

Congratz WC, Ur a MAN now!! hahas.. Happy enlistement..
Congratz TK, Ur old now..!! hahas.. ORD lor..!! xD
Congratz myself for always waiting for her sms but it nv come.. Congratz..!
"Ty ty ty"!!

Hais.. I'll just wait for MIRCALE to happen..!! Im sure it will.. No matter how disappointed I will be.. I'll wait..

Yeah.. After so much hard work.. Tml shall pay off..! Wedding dinner time..!! Yeah.. Spent so much of my time and energy setting up.. Tml I shall GO for it.. EAT EAT EAT!! xD even if I become a FATTY PIG.. I wont give a dam.. The most I excerise lor.. hahas.. Well Wish Him and her all the best in the marriage and everything..!!

Guess my batt reached its max le.. Should recharge le.. sorry for those who wanted to find mi today.. Because I was so smart yesterday, I charge everything, my MP3, PSP, but not my phone.. ended up my phone was a fallen hero today.. SAD.. wondering if u called mi or anything.. But guess u didnt la.. anyway its good to lie to myself.. makes mi happier..!

My Own quot of the day.. "As long as you are happy..!"

And I jux love this:
"The worst part of life is waiting. The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for."

NIGHTY night..!

I hate myself..

2009-12-10T22:59:00.003+08:00

Basically, im tired of waiting or jux gotten use to waiting le.. even tot i know no hope le.. i still wanna wait.. dunno wait for wad.. hais.. guess its time, i must force myself not to wait anymore..

Was rather sad.. maybe i jux dun understand. Y spending a min replying also dun have? hais.. or maybe issit u jux got no feeling for mi.. these are things i've been thinking lately..

Didnt have lunch n dinner till now.. Dying soon.. I simply hate myself for missing u.. SERIOUSLY I HATE MYSELF.. y so easy fall in love?? If im able to i'll jux wack myself la.. hais..

Other then the love stuff.. recently i got tons of things to do.. hais.. need to do more 3D design using maya.. OMFG!! doing 1 is killing now is a few more.. plus he wants it by monday.. this sat will be having a wedding dinner.. and im helping out.. Siansation.. Got to work on fridays n shiterday.. then onli left sunday to finish up the work.. HOW??

Finish complaining about work stuff..

Recently the missing has gone lesser n lesser.. maybe its becos we broke up le.. Or issit the workload im having now is the cause.. everyday also hope to see ur sms.. but dun have.. keep look at the phone.. guess im crazy le..

Hais.. I should go get some food.. or else i having recieve ur sms i die le.. alright take kare pees.. n U please do take kare of urself in everything u do.. last but not least.. HATE MYSELF!!

I really miss u..!

2009-12-06T20:31:00.004+08:00

Had been feeling short sharp pain with sourness in my heart.. I dunno wad happen.. Even its a very short time we've been together.. I jux miss u so much.. And today all I get was onli a sms..

Know wad, I was so happy to see her sms.. Knowing her fine.. But right after a few hours lata.. Things jux started to changed.. This entire whole day was jux so sour.. Without her sms, without her voice.. And seriously I kept looking at my phone.. But everytime was a disappointment.. Having the hope to see her sms coming in.. But it jux got shattered everytime I saw my phone.. No news from her.. "U know I really miss u like crazy" I dunno if u feel the same, but I do.. Its killing mi.. Jux 1 simple sms will do.. Im not hopping for something rediculous.. loving some1 can be so painful..

Things had started to changed.. I agreed.. I hate to see u feeling stress.. I hate it.. Tats y I ask u am I interrupting ur life?? I need the truth, no matter wad ur ans is, I will accept it.. Because if u're not happy, theres no point I kept dragging on.. And I know u dun wanna hurt mi.. but its even more hurtful seeing u like this.. But I think I kinda know the ans already. I ask this as the first question because if I am interrupting ur life, I should really leave u alone.. Knowing u having so much of ur own problems, and Im jux like another burden/worry acting on u.. I seriously dun wan to be a burden.. having u worrying about mi, having u wasting ur time replying mi, having u wasted ur time resting jux because I wanted to talk to u during the night, after u finished ur work..

Remember I told u theres 2 question?? Heres the second question.. Do u love mi?? I've been thinking since yesterday.. Am I able to take it (knowing the ans that u will give mi)? I know I cant, but I have to.. Why I wanna ask u the second question? Its because I feel that no matter wad happen, having u loving mi, even its for a second, or even before.. I simply have nothing to regret about.. Moreover, I really felt love when im with u, even tot it lasted for only a few hours, im contented..

U dun have to worry that u will hurt mi or anything.. Im the 1 asking u to go in a relationship with mi.. So jux let mi know how u r feeling or wad u r thinking.. So I guess I can let u go, and u will have ur own life..

Last but not least, I am really happy getting to know u, having u to be my gf.. Theres nth I will regret about.. Everything is jux so happy.. even tot I kept worrying about u, but I jux feel happy worrying.. At least theres some1 I can love, can worry, can share my tots with.. Sorry for making such a mess out for u, sorry for giving u morning call today without knowing ur actually not work and disturbing u from ur sleeps.. Sorry for all the unhappiness I cause.. Sorry for my sms that was sent to u when u're busy.. Jux sorry..

Please give a sms or a call if u happen to see this?? I really miss u, and I do miss u like hell.. Guess I should get out of u life already.. ^^ be happy always alright.. I will be fine.. Dun worry.. Smile.. ^^ 271109 shall be remembered!!

Rotted Blog.. lol..

2009-12-05T17:30:00.002+08:00

Eh.. psps.. was kinda lazy + busy to blog la.. xD

Anyway Im attached already.. To a super duper silly (*Busy*) gal.. As for those wanting to know who is she.. Ask mi lor.. xD

Right now im waiting for the time to pass.. BECAUSE im going to meet her lata.. Going to bugis to have dinner with her..

Hmm.. today was rather pissed off.. cos she promise to sms mi before she sleep last night.. she didnt.. (maybe shes tired).. then before i went to sleep, I told her to text mi tml morning after she woke up.. Zzz.. I woke up at around 9+ actually going for swimming.. then my great fren ah ment, say the weather so cold "swim wad"? this 1 really.. Roar..!! ok, its over, im not going to remember.. Then slowly I waited till 11+am le.. still nv recieved her sms.. I was kinda pissed le.. So I sms her.. No sms no nothing.. Onli then she called.. By then I was pissed off le.. So I was like not interested in anything le.. I didnt ask her y nv sms mi during the phone call.. But this silly gal knows it, the first thing she said was "sorry dear"..

Sometimes I really dunno I should be angry/pissed or wad seriously.. Then I sms her, telling her how worried i am and I miss her.. And she onli reply "sorry" reason she dun wanna give mi lame excuses for not texting mi.. -.- Aw.. she's really very cute lor..

Its over.. Not gonna think of it anymore.. Just promise mi u wont go mia again..!! Alright..

eh.. ment.. seriously not i dun wan to meet u.. when u called mi, i was playing dota.. of cos nv hear wad u say la.. dun say i not brother, i called u back wanting to acc u de.. but u dun wan.. then I bo pian also.. (he dun wan cos, im going to have dinner wif my dear, then i acc him onli, he say i come also bo liao.. so he didnt wan..) I dun mind acc u de.. Bros wad.. aiya.. anyway we'll meet up some other time alright..

Its about time to get myself prepared to meet my dear le..

tml theres a meet up wif my poly frens.. lol.. Dunno wad they will do.. Zzz.. But I get to bully them.. hahas.. lol.. looking forward to have fun with them..

TATA~~ GTG le.. xD Take care peez..!

Siansation..

2009-09-16T14:09:00.002+08:00

Haha.. POP LOR!! xD
Eh.. gonna go chalet lata on.. Still wondering if im gonna stay overnight.. Cos its like not many ppl going leh.. Siansation..
Plus thinking about the event that is going to be held there.. Wah.. Sian1/2.. Lmao..
Anyway.. gonna meet darrel n shootbuslight together to go there.. lmao.. sian la..
this few days at home also dunno wad im doing.. like wasting my time away lor.. Gonna go unit le.. Siansation.. Miss the days when im slacking, at home.. T.T

Ok gonna go.. Cya..!

Loneliness.. !!

2009-08-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

Sad to say.. Its a boring day.. Been rotting at home.. Cant go out.. (even if I go out, I also got nth to do.) So wads the point of going out?

All I can say I siansation..

Computer? got nth to play.. Now im left alone at home once again.. Felt so lonely.. So sad.. Time is just going too fast.. Emoing..

Signed off.
:+:Nub~Cake:+:

Sense of insecure !!

2009-08-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

I've been having this feeling ever since I went into my life of NS..! I felt hopeless.. Helpless.. Nth seems real to me.. I hate this feeling..

I been missing her alot lately.. Always tot of patching things up with her.. But I dun have the courage.. Things just speed thru my mind.. I really felt insecure.. Or is it because I have her, I can share almost everything with her.. Having her by my side is everything.. BUT.. not anymore..

Been having aches cause of my wisdom tooth since today afternoon.. Giddiness is the part that is killing.. Feels like the floor is moving.. So when to visit the doc.. Glad that my mum acc me.. But while we are heading back home, in the half way she left mi and went to do her stuff.. Reached home, my elder sis is getting prepared to go home.. And Im left alone.. All I tot about is, if shes here, she will look after me.. But not anymore.. I left alone at home watching Tv.. Really dun feel good in terms of physical and mental..

Time is moving quickly, I always tot I could keep up.. But it didnt seem that way.. But no matter wad, I wont give up.. Life ain't about giving up.. Everyday is a new day, I must cherish every moment I have, be it with my family or friends..

I shall stop my emoing here.. Sry for not updating my blog.. Been super duper busy lately.. Gonna POP soon.. And I am gonna give my everything to do it the right way.. 24km route march, HERE I COME..!

I am glad to be able to be there when u needed someone.. Tot I can't help u, and I always cant.. But at least I can share ur load, ur burden.. Which tells me, im still a somebody in ur heart.. So dun worry about me getting annoyed..!

Take care guys..
signed off..
:+:Nub~Cake:+:

What Am I Doing?

2009-07-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

Seriously I dunno what am i doing? I jux dunno y I blog.. N I think I hate a white blog.. a Black 1 suits mi more.. I am who I am and thats mi..

So Im gonna change my blog skin again.

After my grandpa pass away.. I really dunno what to blog..

.Changed.

2009-06-25T08:48:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. Haha.. So I changed my blog skin le.. Always say my blog dark dark de right.. This time I change it to a whitey de.. Look like heaven oO.. hahas..

Any idea on how to improve my blog skin or anything.. Feel free to tell mi alright.. xD

My eyes now is freaking tired le.. Stupid coding.. So ma fan.. Actually I found a blog skin, whereby u have to type to navigate de.. hahas.. example: if u wan to go to my info, then u have to type in info.. hahas.. Fun right.. But I guess ppl will complaint cos its troublesome.. hahas..

Sian.. gonna transfer my pics n video from my phone to my com.. Then upload.. Siansation.. +.-

Yesterday work was fun larhz.. Got to know Chung Siong and Jason.. And we are suppose to fixed my hard disk and stuff ma.. Then the things so small, already hard to see, then not much light, then they were saying wah.. no light leh.. Then the other 1 will start wah, they cut cost cut cost.. Then both will be like YA..!! Cut Cost!! lols.. dam funny lor.. Then we were crapping all the way while working larhz.. hahas.. Funny ppl.. Hope to be able to work wif them again.. xD

Gonna transfer my file in le.. So.. I'll stop here le.. xD
Hey Ppl..!! Be good, Stay Cute and wait for mi alright.. hahas.. Cheers..!! Cya.. >.<

Work. Work. More Work ??

2009-06-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Lol.. Afterall yesterday WC bday party was fun.. Took tons of pics.. Haha.. Will up load them together with my malaysia trip when Im free alright.. Gonna go sleep le.. hahas.. Not that im tired.. Tml gotta work..

U guys will be wondering I work? LMAO!! Wrong hor.. I did email ace recuriters to ask for a job.. Due to my RP bro Thomas.. hahas.. Thx ar bro.. So tada.. Got a 1 day job tml.. And I need to wake up at 6am.. Lol.. Reason is because I need to report at 8.30am sharp.. And I dunno where the place is.. So I have to wake up early.. Go out early to explore.. Heh.. And the job requries mi to do some checking of hard disk.. And its onli like $5 per hour.. hahas.. Better than slacking at home doing nth right.. Anyway its a 1 day job.. So.. Im gonna have fun tml.. Hehe..

Found some bloggie skin before I went out to buy food.. So I will change it n update de larhz.. Dun worry.. And I wan to say, yesterday JIE TING Pang Seh wo meng.. haha.. But sad to say, u miss out a great gathering.. hahas.. The waitress there quit chio lor.. hahas.. All the horny bastard.. Stop saying no gals in our group.. This is wad we are.. And bros forever larhz.. hahas.. xD

Gonna go for my handsome sleep liao.. LOL.!! Zzzzzzz......... bb..

Its just life.

2009-06-22T19:23:00.003+08:00

Sat when to malaysia to see my grandpa.. Mother side de.. When over to see him.. After such long time.. Onli till now, I find the place there is so peaceful and quiet.. Really.. Great place to emo..

Anyway I took some pics wif my grandpa.. The place there, and a video of the place there.. The place where I spend my chinese new year.. The place where I used to go when I was young.. The place where I played.. Haha.. Will upload them lata on or maybe tml..

Right now im going out for WC bday.. It was so messy.. Different ppl say different things.. But the final plan I heard from WC was that we'll be meeting at yishun MRT at around 8pm.. Then we'll be finding place for dinner, then head down to clark quay estimate to reach there at around 9.45 to meet TK.. Then go pub.. ( I dun think I will be drinking, cos tml gonna acc my mum to hospital. ) Which I dunno wad can I do when I reach there.. Dun really have to mood to play around.. Perhaps I missing that some1..

Last but not least, my blog skin buang le.. Sad.. Gonna spend some time to edit my blog skin again.. Sadis.. T.T

So stay tune.. Lets jux hope everything will change and change to the better.. Wish my Ah Gong to be able to stay healthy.. Was so touch yesterday, when we bid goodbye.. My Ah gong told mi, when Im in army, must be careful.. Even tot he is so old le, he still remember me.. And even tot I onli go there once a year or even lesser.. He remembers me.. Im Sorry..

SORRY!!

Lazy

2009-06-19T19:18:00.002+08:00

Im supa duper lazy to blog.. Dunno how to blog about.. Spent most of my time sleeping.. Plus dam sian lor, all my fren dun update blog de.. got nth to read.. Like no news.. Siansation..

So yesterday slept at around 4am++, then woke up at around 8am++.. Reason is to acc my mum to hospital to do some checkup.. From wad the doc say is alright la.. nth de, dun have to worry.. But to play safe, gonna go for another checkup.. So imma acc my mum to hospital again.. Then she was complaining about her swollen mouth.. So we went to woodland de poly clinic.. Check up, her gums were infected larhz.. then next time go back to pluck her teeth.. Sure dam pain de lor.. I will acc u de.. Love u mummy..

Then reach home around 3.30pm to 4pm.. Was thinking about to sleep or to play game.. Ended up I was playing game till 6pm++.. Then got bored so on my com and found out that there were no news to read.. Im jux to bored..

Bball lata? No one called.. So meaning?? I miss swimming.. Its been like a week since i excerise.. Tummy comming out le.. xD.. I getting Fat..!! YEAH!! Celebrate!! ( other people is gonna kill mi..) Anyway.. Tonight can we not go 111 to play? I tired.. Dun feel like getting banged.. So.. Can we?

1 last thing.. For those who watch the show "Bring Me To Hell".. Lol.. Yesterday I went to Shop N Save with my mum.. Then I saw this lady that look like the Ah Ma.. Wah Kao.. Was Shock lor.. Believe me, 4bia liao.. The Ah Ma is was to er xin.. Lol.. Imaging in real life, got some1 like the Ah Ma Vomit "Stuff" into ur mouth.. Wad will u do? WTH.. Better not think about it.. xD.. Anyway altot its er xin, but its a good show to catch for those ppl who haven.. xD.. VOMIT!! ARGHH!! Lol..

Ok.. Imma stop here le.. Take kare readers.. Peace..!! xD
The happy Little Me.. ^^

Trip to Malaysia.. xD

2009-06-14T22:27:00.015+08:00

Haha.. Yesterday ( June 13 ), Clement n mi went to malaysia, cant remember wads its called ( city plaza , city square ). lol..

So this is how is started, June 12 night, We all went to WC house, while ys, wc, solo and clement(leg hair aka car mo) are playing Mahjong.. While im outside wif wc de smallest brother Dota-ing. lol.. Then after that, Clement n me head home, prepare stuff, then we head off to the custom.. Singapore custom was really fast la.. So happy larhz.. Not even 5 mins we're out le.. And here comes sumthing happening, once we went down to take bus over to malaysia.. WOW..!! the Q was so ****ing long.. Lmao.. hahas.. Cant even see which lane of the Q belongs to which bus.. Ask clement to see, but wah lao.. he so tall dunno for wad also cannot see. lol.. while Q-ing, some ppl block my way, then ended up, he took the first bus, then mi took another.. lols.. Yea, and jux for a while he Missed me.. xD hahas.. (Dun think its gay ok, its brother hood) hahas..

Then here comes Malaysia custom.. Wow.. hahas.. See the Q not long hor... but its ****ing long lor.. haha.. And because theres too many station.. So I decided to go the last lane to Q lor.. LMAO.. End up ppl behind us are out of the custom le, we are still inside.. Our lane is so slow lor.. hahas.. Then my leg hair clement got pissed off, then went over to other lane.. lols.. right after we went over, our EX-lane started moving.. WTF..!!

After the custom we went to the City Plaza or City Square.. So the first things is........... Haha.. We went to buy movie tix.. lols.. 3 movie at 1 short..

Lol.. first was at 1.45pm..

We Watch 17 Again.. Super nice Show.. 8/10 lor.. hehe..

Next movie was at 3.30pm.. haha..
This show was Drag Me to Hell.. hahas.. This is nice also.. Jux some part everything just go into the mouth dam er xin..

Here comes the third movie.. lol.. Its at 5.10pm..
Show is Blood: The last vampire.. Seriously this show sux.. Lame..!!

So basically this is our movie plan.. This was the first time of my life, rushing for movie one after another.. lols.. Mean while waiting for our first movie, we went to the wang kok cafe to eat.. Baked Rice.. Weee.. hahas.. Nice.. But i forget to take photo of it.. but I took pics of the drink.. lol.. clement dam scare i took a pic of his so called (wu fa di dang de mei li de face) Vomit please..!! Tats y this pic was without his head.. lol..

After movie is already 6++pm le.. So we decided to go out of the shopping center to eat.. I dunno wad the place is called, but we went for Chicken drumlet and wings.. DAm Nice la.. hahas sad didnt take photo of it.. Was drooling the min i saw it.. hahas.

Then after eating our chickenss.. We went to walk around, clement called it as exploring.. lol.. And this is wad we found, There was a JB car team.. Wow Nice car la.. If onli I had 1 too.. lol..

Guys.. Know y my post seldom have pics anot? Cos I hate posting pics.. Have to arrange here arrange there.. So tiring.. Troublesome.. T.t But anyway, no regrets taking the photo and blogging it.. xD haha.. jux a little complaint.. hahas.. YEAH..!! Its Done.. Have fun..! PEACE!!

:+:Nub~Cake:+: shall Stop here le.. tired..! xD

Back In One Piece xD

2009-06-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

Hi Peez, Quite a few days didnt blog.. Haha.. I gonna have a real long post lata on.. xD Cos now im gonna dota for awhile.. hahas.. So Im back to my happy little sweet life.. xD Tata~~~

Oh time to blog..

2009-06-11T09:56:00.002+08:00

Cant sleep.. Bored.. Im like idling my days away.. Rotting everyday.. Its June 11 already le.. 1 months and 3 days more to my turning point of life.. Siansation..

Bored till got nth to do.. When to her blog, which I always went too.. NO UPDATES.. Her blog have been rotting since may.. But anyway I was reading her previous post larhz.. hahas.. Sian hor.. Quite long didnt hear from her le ar.. Wondering how her relationship going on.. Hope its good ar..

This few days dam sian lor.. Dota Dota and Dota.. Lol.. Bo pian, got nth better to do lerh.. Abo Emo meh?? Where got so much things to emo about?? hahas.. I wanna go cycling.. Its so dam fucking long since I've cycle..

I know my blog songs are rather old larhz.. But it makes me feel my own heart beating.. xD

Im thinking of wad to do lata on?? I tried emailing Ace Recuriters lerh.. But till now still no reply from them leh.. Been checking my email lately.. I need a job.. Lol.. So Poor lor..

Im considering wanna to malaysia wif clement on this sat anot? Cos he might be alone.. So as a Buddy I should right? Lol.. Its like more than 80% I will acc go lor.. He dam emo la, broke up wif her gf again.. Bud/Bro dun worry, got me alright.. Imma acc u de, I will always remember the days u acc mi thru.. ^^

Mi and her gap is getting bigger le.. Seriously, getting rejected everytime is really sad.. Im sorry.. I aint a good person larhz, im selfish, self-center and many many more larhz.. Believe it anot.. Its up to u..

Hmm, Marrisa im sorry for being so straight-forward larhz, for rejecting u everytime u ask mi out.. I jux think that her is enough le, even tot me n her no hope.. I jux cant.. So we'll we good friends alright.. I know the feeling of being rejected.. Im so sorry..

I jux cant see my future.. Haiz.. I know I need to plan, mum is getting worried.. I know.. But, I dunno wad I can do to make things better.. Very Fan lehz.. Everyday got things to think.. If I don't have to think for a day, I would be so happy.. But guess, Family, Fren, bball and games are the only things Im left with..

If if if.. If onli life wont changed.. My life would be filled with happiness and laughter..

Music UP!! xD

2009-06-09T14:03:00.005+08:00

Wahaha.. At last I got my blog de music up.. Thx to Imeem.. xD

New song from 败犬女王.. Haha.. Sweet Show..!! Free Watch it.. xD

Heres the Liyrics:
没有如果 - 梁静茹
作词 : 严爵 / 作曲 : 严爵
紫.ｓè制作 QQ：253057646
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果如果如果如果如果
最后变成如果我也不能接受
错过错过错过错过错过
我比你更难过不会一错再错
嗯这次不要再轻易错过
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
别怕太快乐(别怕太快乐)
别怕失去我~~
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
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Haha.. Tag me alright.. xD

Freaking tired.. Haven sleep till now.. Supa Panda Eyes now.. Haha.. Im still wait for my true love.. 真的爱我就放手一搏 !!!

Lmao.. Not tired yet.. Swimming anybody?? Its been week since I swimming.. T.T I wanna go swimming.. Sun Tanning..!! Im getting White le.. Dun wanna be Xiao bai Nian.. ^^ jio mi alright..!

Be Myself

2009-06-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

I guess I'll jux be myself.. The anti social self.. Dun wish to talking to someone, I dunno.. Wanna be alone.. A peaceful quiet place for myself.. Listening to my fav song/music.. Chilling at the corner.. If its a beach would be better.. Cooling wind blowing to my face.. And staring at the sea.. Come to think of it, its been so long since I did this.. Almost a year le.. Recalling those days, I remember I took a pic of the blue sky, while the wind blow to my face..

Riding the bicycle alone, give mi freedom.. Going to the beach allows me to think.. Staring at the sea and the wind blowing to my face lets me relax.. Tml I shall do it.. Alone!!

Emoing days are back.. Life is good, but it aint going the way it should be.. Haiz.. Emo Emo Emo.. T.T

Desolated~Hell

2009-06-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

Everything is back to normal.. My world is still dark.. Dunno who called me jux now.. Hope is ace recuriters.. Then I owned le.. Got job = Got money?? Lol..

And I found out sumthing today, I need music to sleep.. zzZzzZZZ... Got music, I can sleep like fucking pig.. Lol.. When I woke up, my whole body was aching like hell.. Kaos, do more pull up larhz.. Idiot lor.. Now my arm stuck.. Left the fingers can move.. Siansation..

Gonna acc my mum to NTUC lata.. But dunno wad she wanna buy.. Jux go there help her carry stuff nia.. lols.. Clement, ps ar.. Mi no money le, cannot acc u to movie.. But is tml's swimming still on?

Im going crazy lately.. I dunno why.. Im jux going to.. Emo Emo Emo.. Any1 wanna bring me to a emo place to emo? I wanna Emo.. Yesterday night cant sleep, felt so emo but got no where to go.. Haiz.. I wanna EMO!!!!! WHOs wif me??

Oh Mi God..

2009-06-06T01:09:00.003+08:00

Everyday wake up, the first thing is to check my phone for ur sms.. But dun have de.. >.< Then I sms u, is either no reply or u say u r busy and say will sms mi lata.. but dun have also.. T.T

Was waiting for u to blog, dun have also.. U r so busy de.. -.0 Say wad learn from me, lazy to blog.. =.- Some more is I influence u de.. >.< Hao bu rong yi, u tell me go blog le.. lols.. =.-

I jux wanna send u, the one n only u home.. >.< guess that day jux wont come.. T.T

My entire body was aching now lor.. Now like sotong.. lols.. Did some pull up jux now, after basketball.. Haha.. Basketball today, was rather rough la.. Wad to do? Playing wif piony, uncle and those sort of fren de ppl.. Sian.. All bang bang de.. Cannot blame them also la.. We are jux too small in size.. =.- Not fierce also.. Sad.. Heng today got no injuries.. jux body aching.. Looking forward to sunday's swimming session.. Haha.. Last week didnt go.. This week must be black then go home.. Hahas.. As in Tan la.. lol.. Not black la.. hahas

I really need some jogging le.. My army days are near.. IPPT, everything can pass, jux 2.4km gone case.. Sad.. But everyday I also wanting to run, but sian, got heart no strength.. T.T Im jux wasting my days off, rotting.. Haiz..

I tried emailing the ace recruiters, hopping to get a part time job.. Time is running short.. I wanna change my lifestyle.. But I jux simply sleep too much.. And its way too much.. >.<

I wish nth changes..!

2009-06-05T00:50:00.003+08:00

First of all, Wish marrisa Happy Birdday.. 18 yrs old le, grow up liao ar.. hahas.. On regards of the present, my sis will get it for u.. ^^

Ok, I jux dun feel good.. Yesterday, I wanted to change back my timing.. To sleep at night, play in the day.. I so tried sleeping early, ended up I woke up in the morning 6am, why? cos im hungry.. Wake up to cook maggie mee.. Lol.. After eating cant sleep le.. Staring at my com till 11am++ then felt tired n sleepy.. Then when to sleep.. Lol, and guess wad, I woke up at 5pm again.. Hopeless already.. Haiz..

Next, I been like wanting to send u home, but was kinda like rejected.. Haiz.. I jux wish nth had happen, so nth will change.. But its jux too late.. I know.. I really know.. Anyway, I understand le la, I jux hope alvin dun lose contact wif u.. Stay cute la..

Hell is waiting for mi, NS is also waiting for me.. Heaven jux dun suit me larhz..

Ur Happiness is all that I care.. ^^

What Should I do?

2009-06-02T06:45:00.002+08:00

1 side is fren, the other is the 1 i like.. What should I do? This is not the first time le.. Im really lost.. I need guidance.. Haiz..

Why do u have to do this? Cant we jux have a fair competition? What do u get for doing this? Haiz.. Its not like I say anything bad about u to her.. I didnt.. Why do this to me? I always treat u, as my bro.. But U stab me in the back? It hurts, really hurts.. Right now, I suppose to be sad, or angry? I really dunno..

First, telling her, u will be so happy if I can get back in contact wif her again. Next min u meet her, tell mi u going out to eat.. And next "this".. I really dunno what u will do next.. What about all the hit chest, fist out? I really do treat u as my bro.. Really.. But "this" aint joke to me.. I've tot u changed, or perhaps U had changed.. Change to someone I dont used to know.. Haiz.. LIES!! LIAR!!

Is this where our brotherhood ends?

Didnt get to meet her was kinda sad.. U know I actually got change right after I see ur sms, wanted to rush down to fetch u home.. But..

But I had dou hua yesterday night.. NICE!! My Fav.. xD

Who can I believe? I really dunno.. Onli Heaven Knows..!! Life jux aint going the right way..

I nv treat u as a subsitution, not in the past, not now and it wont happen in the future. U r nv the same as my ex.. And its been a year le.. Its not like what "he told u". Its not like I broke up wif my ex and the next min I like u.. But if u're not gonna believe me.. There is nth I can do le.. Can only blame myself for not being able to make u believe me..

I always tot my life changed better.. But it hasn't.. It didnt.. Everything jux seem so complicated.. Haiz..

Is this what brothers really mean? Is this what brothers are for? Is this what I get, for giving my true heart as a brother? Why? I really dun understand.. Really disappointed..!

Nth tml..

2009-06-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel emo.. Im not going to see her tml.. Shes gonna meet her frens.. Haiz.. But anyway.. I know mien chiang no happiness de.. So I jux wanna see her happy larh.. Like or dun like, doesnt mean matter le.. As long as she is happy larh.. So y force? or pray hard? hahas.. No matter wad outcomes, i jux hope u will stay cute n happy lor.. Even tot I wanted u to be my gf.. But I know its impossible..

Haha.. All my frens, like have gf or bf lerh.. So its like left me la.. Then I'll take over the emoing clan.. lols.. So u guys, jux leave n dun come back to the clan ok.. hahas..

I want u to like mi cos of who I am.. Not wad other ppl says..

As long as U r HAPPY.. I will be happy too.. ^^ Happy forever..

Lousy Gathering..

2009-05-30T22:49:00.006+08:00

Nice 1.. I tot this would be a great gathering.. I can only close 1 eye.. Haiz.. Cause y? They said meet together for movie then go steamboat.. But ys dunno we going for steamboat.. Haiz..

Then today, I woke up at around 3pm.. Tot they would be meeting us.. End up.. They went out already.. This is ok, we can meet them lata.. But end up WJ, Alvin and solo watch their terminator.. Good job ar..!!

Ys n Wc was rather pissed off.. So we didnt care about them, we went for our movie also lor.. Ys, Wc and me watch Night At The Musemum2 at 5.45pm de.. A great show.. But shes not there with me.. Kinda sad.. then end at around 7pm++.. Only then we called alvin n guys out.. They were at alvin house playing game.. U called this a gathering? I DONT..

So Ys, Wc and me shop around while waiting for them lor.. Then after which they came, didnt know wad to eat, then we went to pepper lunch.. hahas.. Taken a few photos.. xD Actually wanted to take a photo of the gathering.. End up everything jux.. SPOILT MOOD.. Haiz..

Then I was so tired.. So I went home first, while Ys, Wc, Clement and Solo went to play mahjong.. I even got a beer while I was on the way home.. Now drinking.. So happy emoing.. Lols..

So tats about all for today, tml gonna go swimming.. Hope it would be better lor..

This is wad I had.. Nice.. XD..

This reciept.. Dunno why it was folded into a boat.. Lol..

This is the beer I brought.. And Im happily emoing drinking now..

Great memories, Great gathering..

2009-05-30T00:21:00.002+08:00

Wow.. Was rather sad at first.. Because I tot im unable to see her today.. But ended up she called mi, asking mi for dinner.. Haha.. So happy to see her.. ^^ xD

Today is like a gathering.. Can we have more gathering like this? Almost every1 came down... except weijie.. Haha.. Then it will be 10 people.. So happy.. Chatting wif them.. Haha.. The basketball game was also super fun.. Even tot theres winning n losing.. That wasnt the most important part.. The most important part was all bros came down.. Haha.. Super fun..

Tml should be going for the movie session.. Are u going? I would be glad if u go.. xD If u r going, any movie would be nice.. hahas..

Gonna end here le.. >.< To be continue..! hahaha..

Owned My Day..!!

2009-05-29T18:05:00.002+08:00

Today was a rather suckie day.. I just dun feel really good larhz..
Wtf.. U go meet her, tell mi u go eat.. Great..

And can u guys stop asking mi wad time play ball? I dun wanna decide.. I hate making decisions.. Just let mi know u guys are playing basketball later will do.. Alright?? Thanks..!

Actually wanted to acc WC to TP de.. But ended up we both overslept.. So thus we didnt go.. Siansation.. But last night was tired, but dun feel like sleeping.. Haiz..

Guys.. Im not attached.. If I am, I will tell u all de.. Its proud to have a gf ok.. But anyway im not.. Im jux chasing her.. But dun think she will like me larhz.. So.. Lately tons of memories came back to me.. And only then I know I did tons of lousy things.. Seriously.. I dun think I a good fren..

I got a fucking bad temper.. Which I dun think there is a some1 who can stand mi.. I am crazy at times.. Doing crazy stuff.. But lately I dun think I am myself.. Totally dun feel angry at all.. Lost all my fighting spiriting.. T.T Tat is even when ppl bang me purposely during basketball games.. Which I normally get super angry.. But I didnt..

Last but not least.. I seriously dun wan to lose any fren anymore.. Leaving poly, is like tons of frens leaving me le.. Frens from secondary school, all grown up le.. Got their stuff to do, like NS and earning money.. Basketball frens, all are mostly in NS, busy earning money and schooling.. T.T Really tired of life.. Sian le..

Can any1 tell mi the truth? Why lie to me? I didnt do anything bad.. All I need is truth.. This few days im really happy.. Sending her home.. Hope she feels the same too.. I shall end here.. Haiz.. Really DISAPPOINTED..

Dammit..!

2009-05-29T13:20:00.002+08:00

Dammit.. Imeem got problem.. Sads.. Create playlist le.. Cannot put music into the playlist.. T.T Yesterday wanted to edit the songs de.. Sian.. Then cannot.. Ended up wake up le, still cannot.. Any1 knows y?? Please tell mi.. I need music music music..!! Sobs..

Happy ING

2009-05-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. today my stomach wasnt feeling too good.. Dun feel like eating.. T.T

I actually very happy getting her, her fav orange juice.. Lol.. And I sent her home again.. Haha.. Wow.. and its like getting faster n faster.. So fast reach her block le.. Sian.. But while she was walking up.. I normally will wait till I cant see her then I go off.. And I saw her with the smile waving mi goodbye.. OH MI GOD.. Its so sweet.. lols..

After that I went for basketball.. Hahas.. Was a enjoying 1.. Then waiting for kor kor to reach, then went to A&Z to eat.. I ate the nasi lemak.. Wow the chicken wing today was so nice.. Lol.. Then we went over to Dou Hua Chen.. To eat dou hua.. wahaha.. Nice also.. 1 of my fav larh.. Wanted to take photo of it.. But see the dou hua was drooling.. Then forgetten.. Lol..

Most importantly, when I told her I dun think I will be able to make it today to chat with her.. She told mi she sad.. hahas.. Siao hor? ppl sad im happy.. lols.. No No.. Im happy cos she is waiting for mi.. And maybe she miss mi?? lols... hahas..

Stay tune.. xD.. lols.. Hmm.. Tats all for today.. Looking forward to tml.. Cos Im able to see her again.. ^^ Nightz.. Sugar Dreams..

2009-05-28T02:26:00.002+08:00

Today was a rather emo day, got bored of dota suddenly.. Dunno wad I am playing.. Hmm.. 7am.. I cant sleep (dunno wad im think, jux cant sleep). I went down to the park near my house, for a jog.. 5 rounds onli larhz.. Hmm.. then went home.. While walking home its like so giddy.. Out of breath.. >.< like anytime will faint..

So i quickly go home bath n rest.. Woke up at around 1pm or 2pm.. Due to a phone call thx to JOE NG.. THX ALOT LEHz.. lols.. Then woke up listening to HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL de songs.. Wow.. I simply LOVE those songs.. Especially, Can I have this dance? xD

Then rot till around like 9pm, I went down for basketball.. Oh Me God.. Saw those uncle that come down onli on friday.. I was shock.. Tot today was friday, so i quickly check my phone the date today.. Its wed leh.. Lol.. Played 1 round of Full court.. Wah.. I totally dun have feeling already.. shooting sux, passing sux.. everything jux sux.. >.<

Then I went to fetch joey home.. Was a sweet walk, was happy chatting wif her.. haha.. But so sorry, I didnt know ur leg hurt, We should had taken bus.. Hows ur leg?
Hmm.. I think that should be all about today.. Gonna draw a tree, a house and a person.. haha.. its fun listen to her saying about how can drawing tell about a person.. or to say the person who draw the picture.. lols..

Last but not least, This is our First Time we took Pictures together..

I seriously Hate this feeling..!!

2009-05-26T03:10:00.004+08:00

Hmmm.. I felt so bad after the chat jux now.. I know u were trying to be karing.. But I dun have a reason to quit smoking.. Smoking doesnt mean Im a bad person, even tot I know other people dun think so.. Its jux.. Haiz..

I dunno how to discribe this feeling.. I jux feel so unhappy.. Its kinda like losing a fren once again.. Cos i smoke? Y do ppl doesnt like other smoke? I seriously dun understand.. This comes back my memories of her.. Haiz.. Remember the first time I went to smoke outside her house.. And her mother went, so young smoke, dun even know how to earn money.. Haiz.. Just felt so hurt.. Really.. And this is why her mum dislike mi.. I dunno.. Really dunno.. I onli smoked.. I didnt do any bad things.. Its not like I rob or steal.. I DIDNT!! So many people smoke, but got accepted.. Y just ppl cant accept the fact that I smoke?? Been losing frens, my close one jux because I smoked..

U can say im selfish, u can say im strubbon.. Tats me.. Nths gonna change anymore.. Never.. I tried so hard to get over sad things, n now it like everything is jux coming back to me.. Can I jux forget everything?? Haiz..

Life been so hard ever since she left me.. I tried all that I can to forget everything, n things has jux been starting to change better.. Why all this comes back to me at this time?? Why.. I dun understand.. I jux simply hate this feeling..

God Help Me..! Sadness has never left me.. Not even once.. Everything is jux like smokescreen.. Or perhaps I create this smokescreen to make myself feel better?? But jux when I feel better the smokescreen left me??

Feeling like crying again..

BACK IN TOUCH WIF A CUTE FREN

2009-05-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

^^.. Got back in touch wif a cute fren.. So cute that she ask mi to blog about mi back in touch wif her.. ^^ hahas..

So funny, and I seriously dunno wad to blog about.. And she ask mi to blog about wad i do today.. =.-

Until now I haven sleep yet.. So tired.. Was playing dota.. Yesterday night till morning.. then went for swimming.. Was a relaxing 1.. Haha.. And got my Face Toasted.. XD

Haha.. Went back home around 3pm++, then back to yishun eat KFC!! hahas so long didnt eat le.. xD then raech home dota again.. Till now.. xD Then mean while dotaing.. My sis help me do a mask.. To protect my face.. hahas.. COOLING.. XD..

then im bloggin now le.. ^^ Really dunno wad to blog le.. lols.

TAke kare readers..!! PEace.. ^^

What should I do?

2009-05-05T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. First of all.. Im sorry mum.. I think I made u super worried for me.. I also dunno what had I been doing.. I know u always wanted me to stay at home, even if I went out, u wont say anything.. But staying at home alone is super boring.. And I know my attitude sux.. I jux can control.. Sorry.. Since MOTHER's Days coming.. I want to tell u, U HAD BEEN A GREATEST MUM, even if ur not the world's best.. But at least U R the BEST MUM to me.. Really Thanks for taking kare of us for so long..

Next dad.. hmm.. I always attitude back to u.. Im sorry too.. Seriously, I also dunno why, whenever u start saying why I didnt come home yesterday, I will feel so irritated.. Sorry..

Gonna go for NS in like a month or 2.. Hope everything goes smoothly.. I hope mum wouldn't need to be so xin gu anymore le..

Think i've changed? I dunno.. All I know is I lost my way of life.. Dunno what to do everytime when I wake up.. Haiz.. Can some1 guide mi?

Lastly, WC told mi about some1.. Hmm.. Yeah we are right.. She got a bf already.. So wad? Even tot I wanted to have a gf.. But I guts are telling mi, I shouldn't have 1 now.. I might jux go crazy if anything goes wrong.. Anyway thx wc.. Thx for helping mi find out the answer.. But Nothing matter as much as my family and money now..!

Tats all for now.. I love u MUMMY..! I love my Family too..! Peace.. ^^

New New New !!

2009-04-23T08:37:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. tot of something that is missing in my blog.. So I added them since I can't sleep.. The Past! Hmm.. But Im still figuring out how to filter of the others.. So when it comes to loading the webpage would be faster than loading everything.. Hmm.. got no idea how to.. But anyway I will figure it out some how..

OMFG..! This few days cant sleep.. Keep dreaming of playing Resident Evil.. WTF.. Dunno how long will this dream goes on.. T.T

Hmm.. Yesterday I checked my internet connection speed.. Its kinda slow lehx.. Its like lagging.. Gonna monitor the speed for a few days before I act by calling the SingTel people.. Hahas.. Give them a NAG..! Hahas..

Was rather bored this few days.. Cause I had been sleeping in the afternoon, then at night can't sleep.. Lmao.. How Long can I go on??

Any program today?? Tons of things waiting for me to be done.. Is it because I always not wanting to do them, and ended up everything got stack up together.. Oh Mi God.. Help Help.. Alright guess I'll stop here..

Take kares readers.. Peace.. ^^

New Blog Skin

2009-04-22T10:56:00.003+08:00

Haha.. Thx the creator of the blogskin.. ^^

Updates:
1. Change blogskin (Cos im bored of the old skin le..)
"Please comment on the blogskin in the tag.. Thanks."
2. New Chat Box.. Old de delete le.. hahas..
(Whick I also dunno why I delete the old 1..)
3. Change Songs.. Tot it would be nice to listen.. (I like them..)
"Any other new songs to intro??"
4. Posted the updates.. ^^

Well I did all this cos I got nth better to do.. Cant sleep.. But Im dam tired.. Aww.. Cannot play resident evil for 2 weeks.. Alvin in camp.. Missed the game.. Dam fun.. Yesterday Majong.. Which I dunno Y I wanna play also.. Maybe was too free.. nth to do.. Was a great session..

Hmm.. recently I had been eating dam little la.. Like 1 meals per day?? Dunno y also.. Dun feel hungry.. Maybe due to me slacking at home too much.. haiz.. Waiting to go into NS.. Any people got any jobs to intro mi ma?? Temp jobs or Full time if they want me, cos my NS is coming soon le..

Still think of YS and WC jio de massage.. For $58.. Should I go?? But the timing different from theirs.. But the thing is that even same timing, the person say we will be in different room.. Hmm.. But what im thinking is at least same timing, can go in together and go off together.. It will be this Friday.. Which I still dunno the place.. Think Think Think =.-

Another thing I need to think is when Im going to get my cert.. Graduated le.. Who can go to skool wif me?? I need to get my cert leh.. Going back skool alone jux to get cert is funny larhz.. At least someone accompany me back, then we can go out marhz.. Wont like waste a trip out.. Anyone acc me??

Lastly, temp there open a new shopping center.. Haven go there yet.. This thursday should be going there to shop.. See see Look Look.. hahas..

Alright waiting for alvin to come out as soon as possible.. Resident Evil 5.. Rox..!!
hahas.. I shall stop here le.. Will update next time.. N READER remember to comment on my new blog k..! hahas.. THANKS!! Stay healthy and CUTE people.. PEACE ^^

emo

2009-04-10T03:43:00.010+08:00

甘心替代你

一生愛你一個

Sumthing new?

2009-03-29T04:25:00.002+08:00

Yea.. Im referring to u..
Lets all move on in life alright.. All that I can do now is to wish u all the best.. Hope u can live happily ever after.. 4eva wif love n kare.. Ever lasting with ur current bf alright..

I wont hope for anything else le.. I dun wan u to cry or even feel sad for me anymore le.. I jux wan u to be happily with ur bf can le.. N dun because of small matters quarrel with him ar.. Its a warning from mi to u.. ^^ All the best.. Free ask mi out alright.. ^^

Hmm.. Money is everything to me now.. Any part time job for me? If have call mi alright.. Cos I think I be going into army this year, and im looking forward to join army asap.. But MONEY MONEY..

Eh.. lastly.. I might seem to be good.. But im not alright.. I will help whenever I can.. But dun take it for granted or make use of mi.. All I need is truth.. To me truth is what frens are for.. Jux a thanks from u is enough le.. =.= Im stupid right? hahas.. Tats me larhz.. heh..

Take kare readers.. Health is important.. Drinks lotss of waters..! Heh.. Basketball Rox.. But where are my skills? Its gone.. T.T Imma go sleep le.. Tired.. =.=

^^

2009-03-27T15:06:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since I posted anything le.. hehe.. PS..

Was working during those days.. But now I quit the job le.. Cos it sucks big time.. I will share it later on if im free.. Anyway my blog also no people visit de.. So should be alright..

Emoing for so long.. I always thought I had already let it go.. But I didnt.. I still miss her alot.. (Will you ever think of me? Even its for a second?) And to think about that its almost a year since we broke up.. We'll meet up, will we?

Yesterday actually wanted to have a drink at PUB or KTV de.. But ended none went.. We went to jalan kayu to makan.. To me the food that not bad leh.. But they dun like.. I also dun understand..

Dunno how to post le.. Sian.. Now single, I can do wadever things I want.. But because of Single, I have to do things alone.. T.T

All I know is, I miss you..

im to my limit le..

2009-02-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

Alright.. I had enough of think already.. Really.. I do what I can to help you le.. The rest is up to god's will.. I dun wanna care anymore.. Really this thing is making me go crazy.. Maybe we are not suitable.. Or maybe we aren't mean to be together.. Let nature take its course..

Gonna take a nap now.. I will help u finish up the research lata when I wake up.. Wishing u all the best.. ^^ U take good care of yourself or let u "bf" take care of u bahz..

I keep telling myself.. "Its none of my business, but can I??" I dunno.. Just felt so sad.. Night.. Sleeping cure everything... Sleeping Rox..

"God just let mi forget everything alright.." Please..!

Dun lie to me..

2009-02-28T10:58:00.002+08:00

Last night.. While I was playing basketball.. I kind of saw her and her bf walking pass.. But after that I sms her to ask her.. But she said no.. She dun even have a bf.. Hmm.. but my guts is telling me, its her.. Anyway I choose to believe her.. "Dun lie to me alright.. I would be very disappointed, if u lie to me.."

Its ok if u have a bf.. I will just give up.. Just dun lie to me alright.. Because that is when my heart for u is dead.. I hate people lying to me.. I would believe what u had said.. But dun ever lie to me.. Even if u lie, please lie all the way larhz.. Dun let mi find out ok..

Had been thinking the whole night till I fall asleep.. Know how this thing had been killing me.. Anyway was kinda sad larhz.. I brought the sweets to ur block.. But u dun wanna come out to take from me.. Do you know that I went down just because of you.. Guess Im jux doing this for nth..

Si wo yi xiang qing yuan.. Wo zi dao..

Xin qing hen bu hao.. T.T

life isnt easy..

2009-02-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

Oh.. Hi readers.. *Too long didnt login to blog.. nearly forgotten how my acc n pw..*

I went to chatlet in sentosa with my lovely skool frens. On the 24 of feb.. It was fun, but because im the only guy.. I had to do all the shit work.. =.= But luckily they are as bad, they did quite alot of shit work too.. (shit work = sai kang).. Lmao..

The saddest part of the entire chalet was that its raining in the afternoon.. If not im sure we are going for some games.. But anyway we rot inside the chatlet which I find it big.. haha.. After which setting up the fire.. That is Oh Me God.. I didnt know how to set up the fire, they didnt know how to set up the fire.. Ended up, I recalled how my frens set up the fire, and from there I mimic the ways la.. (credit WC, event on my bday, cos he actually teach mi some of the tech.) Eat n eat n eat. Everything was so salty.. (food are brought from gaint) shh... dun say its i say de ar..! xD..

Then I slept all the way thru on the 25 of feb.. xD Cool right? Cos its raining.. T.T

On the 26 of feb.. Which is yesterday, I went for a job interview with solo.. On sales promoter selling skin care product and water system product.. Hmm.. yea.. But from the way they wanted to setup a sales team, which is like a multi level dunno wad la.. Which there is no basic pay, going by commision.. Got sell got pay, no sell no pay.. WTF.. We rejected it.. Cos Its simply retarted.. They want us to use our phone to call the people around and promote it.. Which jux right after I heared it, I shut down dun wan to listen anymore.. As you see those job can earn alot.. but it onli apply to selling alot.. Which I find it stupid, because entertaining 1 customer can cost me how much time already.. which still dunno whether they want to buy anot.. Tat all about complaining the job interview.. Let us wait so long.. =.=

And today is really make my day.. My Ro server reset everything, including my characters.. T.T Sob.. So sad.. My items, my hardwork, my time.. All gone to waste.. And from this I learnt No Pain no Gain.
And thinking back.. Never Gain, Never Lose.. Because if I didnt had all the items, I wouldnt had them lost.. And If I didnt had a gf before, I wouldnt be scared of having a gf now.. If I didnt had the money, I wouldnt feel poor. If I didnt had frens, I would feel lonely.

Life is all about a piece of blank paper.. I write on it, when u learn things, but time will make u forget it, that simply erase it.. And when u come to this world, u r a piece of blank paper. When its time you leave this world, u will have to put down everything. (die le how to bring??)

Haha.. So i had blog as I promise to.. Even tot its over the time le.. Ps..! ^^ take kare peez..! PEace!! Woot Whooo..!

Song song song..! MY fav.!

2009-02-04T04:07:00.003+08:00

By: Dear Baby - 棒棒堂&小薰/ㄚ头/小蛮

Lyris:
用右手构图幸福描绘爱的角度
想像有你可以依赖呵护
恋爱必聊情节
有我坐守专线
画面美的好甜
在你的世界
画一个圈圈
赶走所有
不安的氛围
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放开手(我不放手)
承诺是永久
别轻易说出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二点过后
也不怕变成空
Dear baby Dear baby
爱你不寂寞(我不寂寞)
我们手牵手
从日出到日落
Oh Dear baby my baby
让爱情比童话美丽
写下动人的旋律

在你的世界
画一个圈圈
赶走所有
不安的氛围
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放开手(我不放手)
承诺是永久别轻易说出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二点过后
也不怕变成空
Dear baby Dear baby
爱你不寂寞(我不寂寞)
我们手牵手
从日出到日落
Oh Dear baby my baby
让爱情比童话美丽
写下动人的旋律
只有你可以让我真正了解
爱这游戏
充满无限的想象力
完美的比例维系
关于温柔的气息
just you and me

Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放开手(我不放手)
承诺是永久
别轻易说出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二点过后
也不怕变成空
Dear baby Dear baby
爱你不寂寞(我不寂寞)
我们手牵手
从日出到日落
Oh Dear baby my baby
让爱情比童话美丽
写下动人的旋律

Enjoy ba..! heh.. Cool huh..! wahaha..!

Siansation..!!

2009-02-04T03:51:00.002+08:00

Wassupppaa People!! Omg.. I think I give up le larhz.. Dun wan love le.. Sian le.. Lei le..

Anyway, Frens are the best med for healing.. Sinces its almost a year le (2 more months).. Thx poeple.. I used to do stupid things but now.. I dun..

Gonna be going for BBQ at sentosa this coming feb 24.. Heh.. It should be fun.. But it also means im gonna have a hole in my pocket.. Poor lehx..! T.T Sob..!

Yesterday and today went down to 139 to play ball with mogolians.. (* my spelling sux, and i know it *). Quite fun larhz.. especially when communicating with them.. Guess wad, they tot im onli 16.. Wahaha.. I look young man.. *Proud*.. heh!

Gonna be going for army check up lata.. but im not tired yet.. how how how?? T.T

I haven been sleeping like a pig lately.. Dunno why.. Sleep a few hours enough le.. Sweat larhz.. Not the 1 im used to be le.. And come to think of it.. My lousy hot temper is coming back le.. Must control le lor..!! Alan Ng Mao Lin CONTROL ur FUCKING TEMPER!!

Heh.. WTF.. Im bored.. Actually wanted to play game till tml de.. But.. Siansation..

Oh.. my shoulder is very painful.. Use to have some1 to massage for me de.. But now.. T.T dun have le.. Gotto find massage for an mo le.. Omg.. $$$ fly away, just like FIR de fly away.. Some more fly very far lor.. Wth.. *who ask u fly?* Heh..!

Guess im gonna force myself to sleep lor.. Vampire! Dunno got spell correct anot.. Night Cat end here le.. Thanks for read asshole..! wahaha.. Im bad i know.. I didnt say im good anyway.. wahaha.. Alright good nites reader..! im jux joking.. no hard feelings.!! haha.. NIGHT NIGHT..!

H.CNY

2009-01-28T03:24:00.002+08:00

HoHoHo... Happy Chinese New Year Peez..!!

Hmm.. a kinda boring CNY this year.. Didnt have much fun.. Cause simply had too much during the other PH.. LMAO..

Great people with great fun.. Hmm.. Any1 interested in sentosa this sat?? Im thinking of going.. But whos with me?? No Idea.. T.T But not alone, cause I rather sleep at home..

Eh.. feb 14.. SAd day..! Im alone.. And its coming.. =.= WTH.. Why so fast?? T.T

Basically, yesterday I went to alvin house to play.. Cause its better to do something that is kinda boring than to rot at home and do nth.. Am I right? heh heh..

Hmm oh.. I went to pray during the 1th day of CNY, in the morning at like 5am.. ^^ Alot of people.. Hope I can go every CNY from this year onwards.. But Hope onli larhz.. Dunno can remember anot.. Unless somebody is with me to remind me.. But.. No more.. T.T Alright lets forget about the unhappy things since its new year.. So..

I think I should pray all my frens have a simple life, able to feed themselves, get in a serious r/s if they dun have, and stable to if they are in a r/s.. Safe and sound trip out and back.. ^^ Plus get a good job.. Have plenty of fun and love.. Wahaha.. Sounds greedy ar..! Oh.. forget about myself.. Bless all to myself too.. Heh Heh Heh.. WAssup..! Have fun peez..! Tata~~

Im Feeling So Sad..!

2009-01-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

First of all there are 2 things I want to share. 1 is a happy thing, the other is a sad thing.

Lets start with a happy 1.. I am going to graduate.. Is this a good thing? Meaning I am going to army or work already..

Next is a sad thing.. Just because I am going to graduate.. I am leaving my school.. My friends.. My Class Mates.. Be it a good or bad class mates.. I do miss you guys.. This may be the last time we gossip about facilitors or friends or even other classmates.. Skip classes or going to classes.. Complaining about how the school sux and everything.. Playing games in class, getting scolded for slacking in class.. And this day is coming real soon.. Which is tml.. The best thing done in RP was to do the video project.. Where we complain about the holiday.. Because we are to go back to school for some shooting, while the others are actually having holiday.. I will always remember all the cool friends in RP.. The place I knew my EX, the place I knew my friends, the place I spend 3 yrs in.. ARGHH!! Help ME..!

And my life is going thru a drastic change.. It may be because I am not prepare for everything that is in the outside world waiting for me.. Or it may be I do really miss my friends.. And right now I feel like I am losing them already.. No matter what, I may lose you guys, but memories will always be with me, even tot I do not really know exactly how long can I remember these memories.. But I promise that I will try to remember every single thing.. I dun know why I got a suddenly feeling of crying now.. Dunno whether you guys feel that same, BUT... I DO!! Hais anyway nths gonna change right.. We can keep in touch alright.. We must..!

I dunno who can I share with.. So I tot of putting it up in my blog.. Really sad now.. Actually tot of asking my friends out for fun so that I can forget all this shit.. But seems like I am going to stay at home.. Things or event that are over cant be redone..

Be a man and do the right thing.. Im kinda like rejecting the fact that I am graduating.. I dun think I will be able to accept it.. As tml shall be my last day of school life.. I am going out to see the world already, which I dun think I am prepared.. Good luck to everybody that is graduating..

I guess this shall be the end of everything.. I dunno what else can I say..! Give me a Break.. Please.. Any events please ask me out alright.. I promise if I can go.. I will..!

2009-01-21T12:34:00.002+08:00

Since so long didnt blog.. Pure Laziness.. Lol.. Hmm.. but I serious dunno what to blog about.. Yesterday went to to bugis to buy CNY clothes.. Oh YEAH.. Gonna graduate Soon.. Haha.. This friday shall be the day.. Finsh My FYP, CE points, PP.. All finish.. Wee, Sweet.. No more schooling for me after this friday.. Gonna work hard already.. Go army, find a gf, earn lots of money for my family.. !!

Last but not least, I am gonna upload a new song from Hai Tang Qun Xia Zuan.. DAm Nice..!
MUST LISTEN OK?! ^^

What Great Life.. !!

2008-12-21T20:48:00.012+08:00

This post will be a very long post..!! lols.. Have fun reading.. ^^ Hope it kills ur time.. ^^ "Had some problems posting videos and pic.. T-T
First of all, Daz Broz Outing to Sentosa..!! Our first Stop at Vivo City..!! Lame pics =.= "In case of Fire.. Do Use Lift.." Lol.. Lmao.. So random.. ^^!

Next is into sentosa.. Lol.. We brought alot of things from "giant" If im not wrong.. lols.. 12 bottles of drink.. 2 packets of tibits.. And tons of bread.. Lol.. Then we headed of to sentosa.. Lol..

We found our place, and started slacking.. And played basketball there.. Ownedz larhz.. Lol.. Then played volleyball among ourselves.. Fun.. when is our next outing?? Im waiting.. ^^ Then YS dig this farking big hold to bury WC.. Lol.. And I mean it.. HUGE hole.. Lol.. He was in there vertically.. ^^ But WC enjoy it.. LOl.. See his face.. SHOIK AR!! lols..

But sadly.. He lost his Important RING in the sea.. We couldnt find it.. Sry Bro.. T-T then he emo his way back.. Heres some night pics of sentosa.. Nice..!! ^^ Bare with the lousy pics alright.. Im wasnt wif a super cam.. So this the best I can doo..!

My work On Thursday.. And the sentosa trip on wednesday.. So Tirrrring..!! Fun people to have working with..! Lousy place.. But we got lots of people signing up.. Lols.. ^^ Ugly goodie Bag.. Lol.. The middle gal is sabrina.. Izzit she cute.. ^^ lol.. Hope she wont kill mi after seeing this.. lols.. ^^

I had pepper lunch.. For my Lunch Break.. Nice..! And I eat alone.. Peace ^^.. After lunch, found a place to smoke and took these pics.. ^^ Merry Xmas..!! Cool n Windy place..!

And at 8pm.. The shopping mall looks like this.. So ouuloooo!! lols.. CMI lehz..

Then we tooks pics and started packing up.. And I think tats all for today.. Ittsss Loooonng enough.. lols.. ^^ Have fun reading.. ^^ Life Great being Single with great people, cute people.. Lol..

Happy ing

2008-12-09T17:02:00.003+08:00

Know what? Today I woke up at 6.15 am.. Wanted to go to skool.. So I went to prepare.. By 7.00am I got ready.. So I sat in the living room staring at walls.. Then I saw this new SCV hub station, which my mum changed it yesterday.. I actually wanted to help fixed it.. But I screw up by dropping my router.. The router broke open.. By then I had to go out to skool.. So I quickly took the router up from the floor, fixed the broken parts and went off to skool..

At the very moment, I had this feeling of losing sumthing.. Like losing sumthing in my life.. And its important.. First time, with my psp full batt, and I didnt took it out to play while I was on the bus.. I hate this kinda of feeling.. (reminds me of the times we broke up)

Reached skool, I dun feel like talking, dun feel like smiling, dun feel like joking.. And my fren said, why I look like some1 died? Thinking about this question, I would ask myself, What would happen to me if I wouldnt have this family, without my parents, without my sisters? I dunno.. But all I know was it was good to have them with me.. Thx..

So I left at second meeting.. Around 11am++, met up with xiao bai to smoke and to acc him to eat.. Then I went home to check out my router.. When I reach home, the SCV was already fixed and can be watch, and most importantly MY ROUTER WAS FINE.. PHew.. Was having a very bad mood in the morning.

I got online once I reached home.. Then Jing wei pm me with U FUCK.. And he said I pass my Napfa.. Holy ****..

Guess what, I got 42 sit up, 235 for standing broad jump, 48 for sit and reach, 10 pull ups, 10.3 secs shutter run and lastly 11mins and 44secs for 2.4km run.. Wow.. Actually I dun believe it..

Today was a day, where I felt sad, devastated. And I had great news, which is real good.. Passing my napfa..

NOw Im trying to follow up with my CE points. Waiting for my 2 more points to come in then im done with CE. Fyp I need to do the stop motion. And we are almost done. No Fyp on wed anymore. And most importantly my FYP for choosen for open house. Thanks to my lovely team members.. They are great.. Im done with PP.. So im left with my daily grade, and UT grades. Then Im ready to graduate.. ^^

love?

2008-12-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

What is love?
Is love something that makes people happy or sad?
Being love or loving people? Which is better?

Are you the person that likes to make decision on your own? but yet like your other partner to help you make decision?

Are you the person that like to love someone else? but yet at the same time likes to be loved?

Do you always think of the person? And at the same time the person also thinks of you?

Lifes are great lately. Having going to Party World. To sing and I love to sing.
Yesterday when to watch movie. Quarantine. Kinda lame and boring at the start. but the ending didnt suck that much.

Always hopping to have my the other half with me, while I am having fun and sad. but it never came true.

Seeing couple on the streets, really make me envy them. Lovely.

When will mine be coming? Im waiting..

Where is the promise of happiness? Are promises all meant to be broken? Yes? then why are there promises? No? dun bluff urself and me, promise are always broken.

Love love love love love love love love love
9 lovely love to be given to the person I loved.

Sian.

2008-11-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went for my Napfa.. Failed..!
Pull up = 10times, Sit up = 42 times, Standing broad Jump = 235, Sit and reach = 48, Shutter run = 10.4sec.
And I failed my 2.4km run.. WTH!

Then after which I went down to play bball.. First game we lose all the way.. Cos haven warm up yet.. And second game we won! All the way..! W W W = win win win.. ^^

Its my fault to share things with people.. Really.. I wont say anything here.. But I know the friendship is some what done for !! Im SRY.. Maybe Im just TRYing to be a BITCH..

Problem Problem Problem.. Tons of problem everyday.. I really want to have a happy and peaceful day.. Can i? I always dun kare about things cos im really tired.. I dun have the energy to kare about every single things anymore.. Life jux suck all the way.. And it like going down a well..

Feeling real emo right now.. Emotions are really killing me.. Seeing people makes me thinks of myself.. If I do not have emotions, that would be good..!!

Alright I kept lao sia yesterday.. My good classmate cum fyp team mates [Liqun], acc me all the way to W1 to get myself food.. I appreciate that alot.. I didnt say cos I dun know how to say.. And then after that skool I went for my NAPFA.. After that I sms her told her I failed.. Dun ask me why I sms her.. I jux did it.. Then she ask me if I had my dinner already yet? Nope.! NAPFA jux finished.. She told me to eat some plain stuff, but I was like "aw.. Can I not?" Then I smsed her "so troublesome, U cook for mi larhz" Guess wad, she said if only I pay the food she will cook.. lols.. So nice of her..! I owe u big THANKS..!

My anger came back.. Out of some where I guess... I just simply get angry easily.. And came to think about it.. It just like the ME before.. I will control de.. Dun worry.. I may look happy and cheerful, But deep down am i?

Lame=.=

2008-11-20T15:03:00.002+08:00

=.= thx rain for forcing mi make this idiotic post.. =.=

1. I enjoy going out alone.
2. I have alot of retarted frens.
3. I like to laugh at people. (example: a person fell down.)
4. I hate books, but loves reading.
5. I hate people who are gays..
6. I love basketball, simply because I love wacking balls.
7. My life is boring, because I sleep simply everyday.
8. I like to have my happiness being put on others sadness.
9. I hate other people being emo, but I love emo songs.
10. I hate rain, cos she sux for tagging me stupid stuff.

=.= Rain rain go away, but dun come back.. =.=

Wad a Day..?

2008-11-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

First of all, I got a new blogskin.. I find it cool la..

Secondly, I change my music playlist..

Thirdly, today I went to my skool's magic show.. Fun alright.. A performance.. They rox.. Imma learn the trick on how to bian a flower out.. lols..

Fourthly, I wanna thanks liping for giving mi 2 tixs on the magic show.. So that I can have fun watching..

"next time just let mi know ur with a special fren alright.. cos I waited for u to go in together, and when the time u told mi u went in already, I was kinda pissed off larhz.. but after the show saw ur special fren then I know larhz.. Tell mi earlier ma.. So I dun get piss off for misunderstanding.. ^^"

Lastly, enjoy my new blogskin alright.. ^^ cheers.. MY FYP is almost done, some edits and we are good.. Thanks to my team mates, u guys rox..

I brought a beer and tibits.. Wows.. gonna enjoy my movie and eat and drink.. Dreamed lifestyle.. Cool huh..! lols.. roflmao.. ^^

Something about Love

2008-11-17T13:20:00.002+08:00

Lol.. Read some ppls blog.. Wow.. Love is something that is so wierd and yet sweet.. ^^

Affinity is the thing that bring 2 people together.. And it is done so sercretly that u wont even notice it.. Yea and this is it..

Saw the somebody, felt interest, get to know the person, started meeting the person, after some time, and pop! it just goes like this, and they are couple already.

Sweet.. When will mine come? Im waiting.. ^^

yyy?

2008-11-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

Out of a sudden, I felt a deep pain in my heart.. I don't know why.. Today finished skool, went home to sleep.. N now Im awake.. I tried doing things I did before.. Playing my Ragnarok.. But I got so bored.. Guess life really changed.. Has it?

Think think think, I always said to be single is good.. But deep down I really wanna get a gf.. Wad kind of gf? I don't know.. But thinking of having a gf, I scared of the pain I will get again.. I do not have confident anymore..

Im lonely.. I always tot I had gotten used to being alone, doing things alone.. But nope.. I always felt like crying.. But my tears just wont drop.. N theres nth I can do about it..

Love Sucks.. Life Sucks.. Skool Sucks..

Thinking back.. Its all shit.. All my EX GF, are those that started to know me, and I jioed them, then they broke off with me.. WTF is this?

But anyway, forget about that.. Maybe my perfect 1 is not here yet.. Those are experiences to be learnt, so that I am able to find my perfect 1..

After so much, I don't know what I am stressing for? I don't know why Im feeling Sad? I don't know why I suddenly have a heavy feeling inside my heart, like Im dropping down? I guess there is no answers.. I kinda need some time to relax my mind.. Getting to the Beach any1?

I need a place that is cool, quiet and peaceful.. Only then I am able to think.. My brains are like harden, not working anymore.. And I offten feel some compress feeling in my brain, in other words a little pain..

Something bad happen today, My Baobei ear piece spoilt.. Y? I don't know.. T.T Farking bad new isn't it? T.T

I guess I'll just need a puff.. Smokie.. Time..

Ohya, guys btw all this are some of my unhappiness.. But Im not emo.. Say Im Emo? And U're a ASS Hole, U f... Retart..!

Here comes that heavy feeling again.. MY heart.. Fell down deep.. Dead? Alive? I got no idea..
Happy reading readers.. Dun EMO alright.. RollOnFloorLaughingMyFuckingAssOff..![roflmfao]
FK everyone, Free kill..!

Cute Cute

2008-11-06T03:11:00.003+08:00

My Elder Sis de Cute Little Tong Tong.. See the way she laugh.. So Cute.. ^^

Haha.. 1 stress down..

2008-11-06T02:46:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. 5 of nov 08.. I was feeling so stress on the 4 of nov.. Getting my poster fixed, yea and thx to my dear powderful frens.. They helped me in my poster.. Thx guys.. And today I went to school early to get myself prepared.. Yea, thx again to my FYP team mates, they wanted me to present my poster to them once, then she shoot question at me.. At the time I felt so stress, but when I cant answer, they will think of a good reason for me. To get me prepared for the questioning.. Thx alot guys, its great that i know u guys.. And then kenneth came in, my FYP supervisor, I told him I was feeling so stress, dunno what wil happen later on when i present. Guess what he told me, he said " just relax, nothing will go wrong. and just relax myself". Then I went down for my presentation, it was suppose to be 11.30am, I got there at around 11am+ abit.. And no other people was there, so the acessors as me to present first, I actually wanted to go down early to get myself prepared, but the moment I reached I was ask to present. And I was like dunno what to do.. But luckily thx to kenneth, my presentation was really smooth. So I must really thx my frens, Jimmy, Xiao Bai, Li qun, Rene, Pras, Mariam. They gave me lots of encouragement and help. Thx again guys.

After that I went back for FYP, did some stuff, but seriously this time round, I didnt do much for this FYP. Sry guys i will buckup..

Then went I was going home, rain rain rain, so i didnt walk to CWP with them, I took 169 back. Saw liping, but i tot she didnt see me. And she smsed me "see me also dunno how to say hi". And I was like lols ok, my phone got cut, so i cant reply, then around the next bus stop, she sat beside me and told me, dun misunderstand, I came over because it was dripping water. Then I was like erm.. ok.. Had a little chat with her, but mean while i was playing my baobei PSP.. heh.. Then out of a sudden, she ask me to go have dinner with her, and I was like im not hungry now.. So I offer to acc her, and not eating but just accing her.. She refused. So nth much then I said ok.. Then her phone rang, mum called again. Just like last time, dinning out with her family, reason: "its raining and her mum dun cook.." lols.. Then in this case dun need me already.. ^^

Reached the bus stop I always got down, she called me, but i didnt want to get down, why? I dunno, maybe I just wanna sit with her for another stop? Or too many people I cant get down.. But anyway I drop at the stop near MRT.. Then walk home..

Alright I promise to upload some pics from before? ^^ here it is..

the above 5 pics are my bday Present.. I love them.. Thx alot.. ^^

Alright the above 2 pics are things I brought for EVA, from my trip to malaysia.. Cute rite? She loves them.. ^^

Sick Fever!!

2008-10-29T22:16:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since I bloged.. ^^

Anyway had a lot of fun recently.. Martel, Martel and Martel.. Keep thinking of it..

But I got sick this few days, maybe its because god thinks that im having to much fun already.. My fever keeps coming back again n again..

Its wed, u told mi that u went swimming, but u didnt see that guy.. How am i suppose to ans u? But anyway it was my point of view of liking u.. So got nth to do with u.. But im happy this few days, cause I felt love again.. But I know its all jux from a fren.. Anyway.. hope she will get to see her prince charming every wed..

My phone got cut.. So sian.. Cannot call out, cannot sms out.. WTH.. I hate M1..

I wanna get W980.. Looks cool.. ^^

Ok, im going out to have dinner myself. And its Alone and Fever only.. I can do it cause im alan.. ^^

My Birthday.. ! Coming Soon..!

2008-10-16T22:30:00.003+08:00

Alright first of all.. 1 and 1/2 hours more it will be my birthday.. ^^

WISH ME HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY..!! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH..!!

My birthday BBQ on the 10 of oct.. I got some nice n cool present from my dear frens.. Gonna upload the pic sooner of later.. Im lazy.. :p
Some Pics of me being sabo, I dun have it.. But u can look at rain's blog.. haha..

Next.. On the wed 15 of oct.. My dear skool fren aka FYP team mates plus some other skool fren. They gave me a surprise birthday cake.. Thx guys.. But mariam was a lousy liar.. But anyway BIG THX.. I was shoke at that time.. So no reaction on my face.. haha.. Sry bout that..

Lastly.. 16 of oct.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE.. Altot Im a bit late.. But Im still on time..
I went down to 139 for bball.. I wanted to train actually.. But I ended up play with some cute mongolian people.. Haha.. dun quite understand them, but they funny.. ^^
They said they are here for 1 month already.. hahas.. And ask me whether am I coming down to play tml.. And I said no.. Sorry.. Cos tml is my BIG DAY..! And I really dunno when I will have to mood to go down.. ^^

Yesterday slept at around 5am, woke up at 7am.. Lols.. And Im still alive now.. hahas.. Woots Rox..

Alright I am going to stop here.. ^^ Going out to have my sweet dinner.. Muackz..

Thx Eva.. Ur the best, U kept me acc when Im alone.. ^^ And most of all, ur sweet.. really..
Im wanna sms u jux like this forever.. ^^ We will always be good frens.. Or dear frens.. I rather stay on the same page then to hurt u or hurt myself.. ^^ PEACE peez..! Miss ya lots sayang EVA..! Muackz.. Muackz.. ^^

Gonna meet EVA tml at 10pm.. YEAH.. I can see u on my birthday.. SWEETEST..!! Thx Eva, even tot u r working (tired).. U still ask me out.. ^^

Signing off by Eva's sayang aka alan.. =P

Have fun..!

2008-10-11T15:30:00.003+08:00

Yea.. Today is the day.. haha.. WEE..! MY 21st birthday BBQ!! woots.. heh.. But im bored now..!

Yesterday, wasnt feeling good enough.. I feel so sleepy this few days.. sad..

Went down for bball.. Yesterday I ate breakfast onli.. And it last till 12am before I had my lunch, dinner, supper.. Was so dam hungry..! Play bball without food.. No energy.. Im a burden..

Wah yesterday got 1 guy, he keep using his elbow to play bball.. We scolded him, ans he say wah, its jux a fake.. WTF.. CB kia.. Dun think I look peace, u can do this to my frens..!! I'll find 1000 bangala rape u! CCB.. make mi dam piss off yesterday.. Noob larhz..!

Finally..!

2008-10-10T10:23:00.001+08:00

Finally its fri 10 of oct.. hahas.. tml is BBQ day.. Have fun ppees..!! lols.. hahas.. Anyway this few days dun feel like coming to skool.. wad to do.. haha..

yesterday whole family went to NTUC to buy my bbq stuff.. lols.. then I called YS to help.. haha.. the monent he reach he said.. "Whole family come to NTUC, buy new year stuff ar?" lols.. N i was like lol.. But if he didnt say I didnt notice.. It really looks like buying new year stuff.. lols.. hahas.. Happy tml..!! Muackz..! love myself.. hahas.. ^^

Nice Movie..!

2008-10-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

Watch Big Stan with my bros.. WC and Cai Xiu Juan.. lols.. Wow.. I was so hungry.. But the movie was dam funny.. Deadly finger.. LMAO.. and those gays in the movie.. Look so funny and gay.. ROFLMAO.. hahas..

My memories..

2008-10-02T23:53:00.005+08:00

This are all my sweet memories 2 yrs ago.. I got so many.. All are still with me.. Nicely place in my cupboard.. It will always be my sweettest! memories.. I love them still..

u think forgetten.. seriously i haven.. anyway the place u have in my heart is still at the same place.. but i know all this are rubbish.. simply because we wont be together again.. 1 main reason, ur mum dsilike me, u dun like mi to smoke.. I was in lots of pain before, viewing ur blog daily is also my routine.. but after i got to know that u got a bf that loves u.. I know its time i cannot lie to myself, i have to face reality.. And the fact is u r not with me anymore.. I tried to give up.. But all are still with me.. none is thrown..

Haha.. Its Fun..

2008-10-02T23:37:00.004+08:00

Alright first of all. I wanted to and a post yesterday.. but was too tired.. due to some drink session on tuesday.. But its so fun.. I get to K-BOx.. Wee.. Guess wad..

I spend more than $100++ that night.. OMFG.. We open a martel, which give us 4 free entries to a K-box room at Cini.. lols.. Fun.. I got drunk and vomit.. First time I felt that, and I understand why people like to drink so much.. Just for that kick that is kicking in my head.. And stupid alvin dun even know how to hold his handphone.. The photo he took are all upside down.. WTF.. lols.. Below are the pics before I vomit.. Haha.. Face so red.. like idiot.. lols..

Looking forward to tml!!

2008-09-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

Yoz.. I am looking forward to life this month.! Simply because tml ys celebrating his birthday, and we are going to seoul garden.. ^^ Nice.. It would be perfect if the some1 would go with me.. But I dun have to guts to ask larhz.. Weaking mi..

And this coming oct 11th, I am going to have bbq at blk 111 de bbq pit.. To celebrate my birthday.. Sweet!! But I got ask her to come to my bbq larhz.. Hope she will come.. ^^ She say she got present to give mi.. Sweet.. Even tot I know she wont like mi larhz.. But will still hope so..!

17th oct.. my bday, who is willing to acc mi to Sing-k? Longing for K-ing very long already.. This month shall be the month I get myself reborn..! I am gonna seal those broken love before in my cupboard.. And I shall reborn..! Wahaha..

Hiya.. Mi here wish u a happy birthday first ya.. 8 of oct.. Once u see u will know its u larhz.. Cant keep my promise to celebrate with u every year.. The best I can do for ya is give u a birthday wish.. ^^ Hope ya pass ur skooling, get well with ya bf.. Sorry that my promise are broken.. Cos I dunno how to face ya.. Anyway happy birthday of 8 of oct.. I remembered..! This is wad frens are for..! alright sealing up.!

Sweet.. She haven been smsing mi for long.. lols.. been waiting for like years lehz..! 3 days I guess feels like 1 farking year..! Wo hui dou dou de ai zhe ni de.. lols.. quoted from Da Yin..! lols..! Rox..!

Happy Oct people..! U rox dudes..! Gonna go cindy house to cut cake le.. I shall end here.. ^^
Sweet.. Dunno when she will sms me again..! Waiting Waiting n Waiting..! Dun ask mi y i dun wanna sms her.. Simply because I dun know why too..!

Dreaming Panda..! Ended..!

so long didnt blog.. heh..

2008-09-28T11:29:00.002+08:00

Wee.. Im back to blog.. ok imma start from my last fyp meeting to east coast park.. which is on a sunday. Holy ****.. lol.. because sat night i dun feel like sleeping.. so asking wj n wc to ride bicycle.. wow.. I ride from yishun to sembawang.. then meet up with wj, and when to wc block, waited for him the grab his bike.. then we went to ride around, we went to woodland vista point.. Wow.. its been a long time never went there le.. Then we rested for a while**.. AND pop! its 6am.. lols.. geng la.. hahas.. then we went home.. by gambus. lols.. we got spilted half way.. cos sembawang ma.. then I ride back alone.. lols.. after that I went to 139 bball court.. wow.. saw people playing bball early in the morning 6++7.. lols.. I borrow the bball.. And I played till 7.. I guess.. geng la.. hahas.. then I went home have a bath.. then started using computer.. lols.. Great night..

But then i cant sleep.. I need to reach east coast park at around 11am or 12pm. Cannot remember.. Wow.. actually main purpose is to go there to do FYP.. but end up we rented bikes, roller blade. Cos 1 of my team mates she do not know how to ride a bike.. so me n her rented a couple bike.. then the other 2 got single bike.. lols.. then the gal that do not know cycling say its boring cycling.. so she went to rent roller blade.. lols.. she fall down twice.. and the last 1 was ouch.. then she started saying cycling is BETTER.. lols..

Then after that I played the roller blade.. wow.. I still can roller blade.. my balance is still good.. ^^.. But im not pro in that la.. lols..

then we went shooting pics.. asking people can we shoot a pic of their family.. wow happy family..

By then its 4++, we went to parkway there la.. to eat.. lols.. then its 5pm le.. wow.. li hai leh.. then took bus back yishun with a team mates... lols.. I slept all the way.. Reach home around 7pm i think.. lols..

Fun day cycling around.. lols..

Then life remains the same.. cant remember anything that is funny or fun.. lols..

Till yesterday.. Filming at hougang... Wow far and I haven been there before.. haha.. So I took 965 to senkgang than took 80 to hougang.. lols.. clever me!! hahas.. meet up with them.. And I was hungry till I got gastric pain.. ouch.. Out of a sudden, I felt like eating mac.. ^^ nice..!

Then 3 of them look at me eating.. cos they dun wanna eat.. lols.. wierd.. then went to frens house for filming... Wow her sis n her sis husband was pro actor la.. really.. even tot her sis kept laughing.. really pro actor..

finished.. I wanted to take 854 back to yishun alone de.. but say mi anti social.. wah lao.. bo pian then i acc them to amk.. I dunno y I hated that place.. but anyway.. I went there.. Then had their dinner.. n I played psp there.. lols.. Got my frav bubble tea.. nice ^^!

Then went home.. wah.. ys they all ask mi go out.. but I am really very tired.. dun feel like going out.. lol.. So i slept all the way from 10pm to just now 10am.. lols.. 12 hrs of slept.. SWEET!!

long enough le la.. the post.. lols.. Tml pay's gonna come in.. Wow.. I can clear my debt and I can at last buy a new mouse.. my razor mouse spolit le.. left click got prob.. hahas..

Alright gonna end here.. ^^

Waitin..

2008-09-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

Gonna acc my dad to hospital... His leg is injured...

If my life can exchange for my parents health, i would do so..

Today wasnt a very good day.. But anyway its over.. Hope I will do a good job on my FYP... Not draging or be a burden to my team mates can le..

Play bball almost everyday.. But havent got any improvement.. I onli feel that Im getting lousier.. Siansation..

No Game to play.. So boring..

Ohya.. Just got my lappy reformated.. wow.. Its fast now.. Power..!

Time flies..

dunno what to put here..

2008-09-06T14:01:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i guess im alright.. at least my heart wont feel pain anymore.. dunno is it good or bad.. but anyway.. i will look after my duck duck well de.. ^^

yesterday bball session was great.. we won, credits to everybody on court.. they rox dude.. lols.. coach i need training..!! i am still so slow, my scoring sux too.. everything on my bball sux.. onli my attiude kinda change, i guess, im not as hot temper le.. know how to control already. even tho some times still will get angry easily. but bear with mi guys.. IM CHANGING SLOWLY..

yesteraday bball session, we won due to uncle tired.. phil ppl nv come.. onli got some china china de ppl.. lol.. they are so unreasonable.. omg.. anyway.. forget about it.. hmm.. life gonna be busy once again.. study, fyp, ragnarok, bball, n best of best hot shot!!

learn quite alot from that show.. lols.. i slept for like 3 hrs.. dad leg was injure. i was ask to go poly clinic to queqe for him.. but the stupid lady said he has to be here.. then after dad didnt want to come down since i cannot queqe for him first.. lol.. got a waste trip down.. treat it as cycling session.. its good.. i miss swimming..

mi birthday coming, maybe making chalet or bbq.. hmm.. any knows how much is need for making a chalet?? lol.. kindly let mi know k.. im noob larhz.. bear with mi.. lols.. psps..

money money money, work work work, need money for my birthday.. any jobs intro?? lols.. but onli on weekends.. need study marhz.. lols.. hope i can have a happy oct.. at least for this year..

love my family, love my frens, love music, love everything around me.. cherish everything i've got now.. lols.. dunno what to write so write craps.. lols... kinda long le..

ragnarok, got a high priest le.. so nice.. i played gal char.. haha.. so pretty..

im slowly forgeting u le.. im recovering le.. at last im moving to catch up with everything i've lost emoing.. but im still lacking behind.. u have shown mi a good example by moving on with life.. at last i understand le.. move alan move.. gonna love myself more..

not gonna look forward to any love.. love wont last long, fren are the 1 that last long.. but if that comes i wont stop.. and this mi.. lols..

too many craps le..

guild name: :+:FairiesTales:+:
leader: AngelzBaby
game: ragnarok

hehe.. ^^

After so long..

2008-09-03T13:21:00.002+08:00

I tot i've given up already.. But I didnt know u got a bf already.. He looks like a good person. Wish u all the best.. Hope u and him can be happily together forever.

I felt a sharp pain, when i know about u having a bf.. Feel like crying..
When will my heart stop bleeding??
I think I will never fall for any1 le.. My heart seems dead..

Anyway, All the best.. Dunno whether u will look a not but still all the best, it comes deep down from my heart..

Wow What a monent when I woke up..!

2008-09-03T12:51:00.002+08:00

Hey seriously, stabbing mi at my back is nth.. Dare come say it right in my fucking face.. Piece of shit.. I dun say doesn't mean i dunno and i dun mind.. My Mei Mei.. Really.. U like to say people behind at the back marhz.. OK!! I play with u!! U think u fucking did a lot of things? Roflmfao. Cleaning bambi de shit also not u clean 1.. Is Ah boi ok..! I fu him, not u..!! U will do thing when mum ask u to do. ^.^
So u saying mi eat, play computer and sleep. Yea u too, u eat watch tv, sleep. Dun tell mi u find work? this few days u r also at home.. Find wad job? so high tech ar? find job at home? or no need work money come?? Laugh My Ass Off.. Wad else u did? opps.. I didnt see.. Maybe wow u did lots of cleaning. But that will happen onli when the pig can fly, i can fly and u can fly. LOL..

Moral of the Story.. Do not point fingers and others.. As u still got 3 fingers pointing at urself.. And please do everthing (and its everything in the house, EVERYTHING) before u say other people never do anything.. If not u will onli pissed people off, thinking u r also the same n u come to say people. I pity u..! Think before u talk..

FUCKING GET OUT OF MY LIFE.. I REGRET WHY I HELP YOU, WHEN U QUARREL WITH MUM, LET HER CHASE U OUT AND I WILL HAVE NTH TO WORRIED OR ANGRY ABOUT ANYMORE.. U DUN KNOW HOW TO TALK TO PEOPLE IN A DIFFERENT MANNER.. U SUX.. NO MORE CHANCES, I WONT HELP ANYMORE.. REMEMBER IF GOT ANYTHING HAPPEN TO U, I DUN KICK U DOWN IS COUNTED AS HELPING ALREADY..

SORRY BUT U JUST SERIOUSLY PISSED ME OFF.. U R MY SMALLER SISTER, U GOT NO FUCKING RIGHT OR POWER TO COME SAY ME. STFU. SAY THOSE TO YOURSELF. IM NOT LIKE YOU, I NEVER KEEP SAYING U NV DO ANYTHING.

OH MUM CALL U TO HELP HER, U SAY U GOING TO FIND JOB.. LOL.. WTF U DOING NOW? WATCH TV?? NOW THEN I KNOW WATCH TV CAN FIND JOB.. NOOB!!

wow feeling so much better now, since i got no body to share with all my anger. I vent it all here..
thank you little blog.. lols..

Work Work Work.. ^^

2008-08-24T18:02:00.003+08:00

Wow haven been posting lately. Hahas.. Kinda Busy I guess.. ^^
Doing project (PP). Thanks to all those that helped me in my survey.. Really Big Thanks.

Work? haha.. I was working in J8, as a passion card promoter. Who wan come J8 find me ok? hahas.. Got free GV movie tix also leh.. 3yrs for $10 nia.. lols.. Find me on Fri morning 10am to 4pm, Sat on 4pm to 10pm. Haha.. Thanks ar.. If dun wan sign up, come find me also can larhz.. But sound stupid. lols..

Ok some funny stuff about my working place and time. That day was the second time I worked on a friday morning. I was busy setting up the booths. Then came a so called J8 management people larhs.. She said the power plug was dangerous, and children needs to play with the things there larhz. Then I got stun cos she suddenly came out from no where. lols. Then she went to kick the power plug to a corner. Then the power plug got angry and went BOOM!! And the J8 went blackout.. Lols.. Luckily got thomas with me larhz.. Then thomas kept saying " didnt ur mum teach u not to play with electricity??" lols.. And we went laughing the whole day. Cause the J8 lady was shock the the power plug went BOOM !! hahaha.. So dam funny.

Then the next day, sat night, I got to know this funny person JON. He got lots of craps. I remember that day my sales / business was lousy. Then he came over and told me that he got an idea to promote the passion card. So I asked how. Then he ask me to promote saying that every people that sign up can touch his BUtt.. lols.. WTH.. But its funny. Then I told him, then sure nobody will wanna sign up anymore. But he said, people will queqe up to chinatown. LMAO..

Then recently de friday, he was giving out brouchure. Then he got tired and have a break. As the weather was hot, he went to like pull his shirt larhz. Then suddenly he told us, the aunty from the level two was peeking at his breast. ROFL.. Who the hell will wanna peek at him.. LOL..

Jon ask me to go to his place there to play bball on this coming tues. As he is going back to china to work le.. Haha.. but its kinda far leh.. wah lao I go alone so sian de.. Some more i so farking lousy in bball.. haha.. See who is free acc me go la.. He say hes quite good in bball leh.. lols.. Dunno whether is true anot leh.. haha..

Then yesterday was working with sabrina, working with her is fun too. Laughing all day while working. Due to JON's lousy zi lian crap. haha.. Yesterday sales suck ok.. hahas.. Both of us went to like approach people, but nobody answered us. Then around 8.30pm++, we gave up. And we went chatting, then came people, they apporach us.. wah lao.. cant they just come earlier. lols..
same like taxi, when u need 1, they wont come, but when u dun need taxi but wanan cross the road, taxi keep coming.. lols..

篮球火 Rox..!! Dam nice larhz.. Haha.. You can watch it at www.youku.com.. haha.. Dam nice leh.. But untill 4 ep nia.. Wait till my flower all xie le.. haha..

Haven being feel this happy lately, Thanks Thomas.. really thanks. Hope everybody is doing good. Take good kare hor everybody.. ^^ Jia You.. Shall continue to keep myself busy.. hahas..

Is it a good or bad?

2008-07-24T15:35:00.002+08:00

1 good thing: I FINISHED my FYP1 le..
1 bad thing: I got my PP to do.. My Grade sux all the way in this sem..

I dun feel like studying le.. I dun wanna fail.. But seems like im force to.. Ut Ut Ut.. Next week is wad.. UT week ar.. NBCCB..

Serene yong.. U SUCK..! From Mi.. Get it.. NBCB.. BITCH.. Give me F.. Know why people hate ur lesson.. Cos u SUCK.. Farking BITCH..

I jux do not have the feeling to do things.. Im tired le.. Real Tired.. Im just like a rubber at its fullest stretch le..

Really WTF.. Feel like Dying.. Really..!

U R MY EVERYTHING..!

2008-07-19T18:56:00.002+08:00

I miss you.. I really miss you.. I am willing to give up everything.. Just to be with you.. U are my everything.. REALLY..! After so many things happen.. Only then I know that You are So perfect.. Life been so good during that 1 year and 1/2 months. Really.. I am so happy at that time.. But now.. Without u.. I dont.. Even when I finished my FYP, even if I owned people on games.. Even when I win people on bball.. I JUST DUN FEEL THAT HAPPY.. ITS GONE.. ALL GONE.. I JUST WANT TO BE WITH U AGAIN..

Just watch what happen in vegas.. Its so sweet.. maybe Im feeling emo again.. But I just cant stop thinking of you.. When Im watching.. I just want to watch it with you.. Only you.. Everytime I went to watch a movie with frens.. I will always think of u.. U U U, only U..

Wad Im left with is only ducklie.. I feel so sad.. I cried.. Its just so pain.. deep in my heart..

Such a long time ~ ~ ~

2008-07-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

First of all, sorry that I didnt make any new post lately.. As I was busy with my project.. Cheers.. Feeling a little bit relax now.. Wish me Luck on my 23rd july FYP presentation..!

Secondly, Life was really good. As in I watch a lot of movie lately.. As in HellBoy 2, Hulk, Dark Knight.. Lol.. All is nice.. Anyway.. this is only my enjoying life.. Because I skip class with my frens and we went watch movie.. WTF.. All my grade was.. RED and X.. Play too much le..

Thirdly, I am stressing for my PP.. Got a feeling that I couldn't finish in time, as from the things I am doing lately.. I cant blame myself.. Because we just submited our FYP this week monday.. Wow.. And I always have this feeling that I am Hang.. Haiz.. STRESS!!

Fourthly, I really miss her a lot.. Her photo is just at my inside my room.. Whenever I look at it, I feel a very sharp sour pain deep in my heart.. Can I really let go? Please tell me that I can.. I am dying.. The world is moving.. Am I?

Fivthly, I wrote a 600 words RJ(homework).. To shoot my Facilitator(teacher).. Because of her grading.. All her care about was those people that are strong.. And strong as in, they repeat what the others say and the nod their head.. Holy Shit.. Come on man.. Make ur own bloody lines.. Dun repeat what people had said.. Did my english improve? lols..

Sixth, If my english improve, thanks to someone special.. That talk to me in english.. hahas.. even tot my spelling still fail.. But I am glad that my english has slightly improve..

Seventh, today is a friday night.. And people out there are having fun.. What I can do is only DO PROJECT!! Lifeless?? Haiz.. All I can say is THATS LIFE.. Had fun playing ball just now.. Since so long that I played bball with them.. I tend to play alone lately.. Emo? Maybe? LMAO.. I just felt guilty for banging the ph people.. Even they played rough.. Even they bang me.. Cos I made him spring his leg.. Normally I would feel angry when people bang me.. Maybe because the fire in me, is not burning anymore..

Eight, My aim now is to pass my poly life, go on to NS, come out to work.. Earn lots of money, buy a CAR.. My aim.. Hmm.. Regarding LOVE.. I kind of lose hope in it le.. Sorry.. Because my tag line.. LOVE bring me to HEAVEN.. But a Broken LOVE push me to HELL.. Hope I can be wei chiang, Heart's dead.. Why mine is still pumping??

Nine, recently I find that I just suck in everything I do.. I dun have to feeling to win.. All I do was " the most lose", its just a game.. Is this me? I dunno.. Slowly forgetting myself.. Slowly, I wont even know who I am..

Tenth, my Reflection Journal for the week..

Things you wanted will only move away from you.. And when you gave up, it will come to you..
Life do have ups and downs, depend on how you look at it..
Friends are important.. Even they cannot keep you acc whenever you are feeling down or up.. As in when they are there for you, you will just see the ray of hope shinning on you..
Music is my life.. No matter what music, be it old or new.. I feel that it is only 1 thing that understands my feeling..
Stress can help you do things to your limit.. But on the other hand, I might bring you to death..
Always find yourself, do not lose yourself.. And do not be like me, because I am almost dunno who I am already..
Goals are to help you work hard, when you are slacking, or lose ur way..
Talk in a properly manner.. And people will talk to you the same way.. (this is something I feel)

Hahas.. I ten points of things that happen.. Woots.. Dun lose ur way with each passing day.. A part of the song I used to sing during my secondary skool life.. So meaningfull.. ^^ Alright people.. Take Kare okiesssss..!

Good energy 's Back..

2008-07-10T15:07:00.002+08:00

Wow.. Lately I feel that my engine started.. As in I got the mood to do work le.. Unlike before (after mi become single till now). Haiz.. But I still cannot wake up in the morning to skool.. LATE LATE LATE LATE.. I got no sense of urgent.. I dun feel that I need to rush to skool.. So always take my time to skool.. OMG.. Tats mi.. NTH can help.. Been Crazy lately.. I went to JB, with frens.. haha.. I go there eat, drink starbuck coffee.. WOW.. Watch Hulk at JB.. SOund so Stupid.. hahas.. But its fun.. Shop around wif my fren.. ^^.. So happy.. But its not going to be the same anymore le.. haiz.. Anyway.. today im like a crazy.. I do my work le.. Started to do work le.. hahas.. Not slacking anymore le.. Maybe cos I think my part of the FYP is done le ba.. Sumthing that makes mi happy.. Gonna upload some pics.. !! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU..!!

My True desolated world.

2008-06-25T23:49:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. I emo again le.. Everytime I have sumthing to post = I emo.. WTF.. I seriously dunno what im thinking.. I know we wont be tgr anymore.. But every now and then, I keep thinking of her..
The memories of happiness, sadness, hardship, EVERYTHING in the 1&1/2 yrs.. I think I am starting to wake up le.. My sweet dreams are going to end le.. Can any1 give mi a brain wash.. People keep saying, the old dun go, new wont come.. Dun because of a tree and give up on the whole forest. But Im with the tree for 1&1/2yrs.. I give my everything.. All I had was her.. And not im left with nth.. Frens are jux some1 to play with.. A wife/gf are some1 I think that I can share my happiness and sadness with.. Family are some to make mi feel im wanted(with love and concern).. And now I feel like im unwanted.. Seems like I dun have a place.. (is it my fault?) (i dunno.) And theres 1 thing that came across my mind.. DYING.. I know it is not going to solve my problem.. So I didnt.. First time I felt like dying.. Really hurt so bad.. When Im sad, I can only hide in my room or toilet n cry.. I got no1 to an wei, got no 1 to accompany.. Got no1 to share with.. All alone.. When I need some1, no1 will be there.. I really understand, how it feels when u needed some1 and no1 will be there.. So Hopeless, helpless.

I tot I grown up, I can handle things on my own.. But really its good to have some1 to help u when u need help.. But no way im gonna find that special some1.. Really kan kai le.. I got no hope in love anymore.. Its something that brings u to heaven and its some thing to pull u down to hell.. Do the world really have angel? All I know is there is Devil..

"Ur Like an angel in the SKY. Send from god above for mi to love." Quoted from A1 "like a rose"

I feel like crying now.. Hao Xiang Hao xiang.. Hao Xiang hui dao guo qu.. Bring mi back to heaven.. I jux dun feel like staying at home.. I HATE MY HOUSE!! I HATE MYSELF!!

L O V E ? ? ?

2008-06-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

Some say that Love is like a BANK.. The more money u invested in the one bank account means the more u love the person.. But if u dun invest in the person's bank account, and u keep drawing meaning the bank account will soon dry up.. And till then it is too late to even invest anymore.. But love is a two way thing.. U need to invest in the person's bank account, and the person must also invest in ur bank account.. This is how bank account balance up.. Haha.. I find it very true.. ^^ quoted from zhi fa dai yan ren(channel U, 9pm de show)..

How a love is between male n female..
For a female to love a male.. Female do not have to love him (not to say dun love la.. Jux love but dun need a lot).. but to understand him..
As for a male to love a female.. Importantly love them with all u got.. Always let her know u love her.. And do not try to understand her.. ^^ also quoted from zhi fa dai yan ren(channel U, 9pm de show)..

Both I find it very true in love.. As it kinda of happen when I recall back.. Which is my experience.. Some may find it true, some may not.. So happy reading.. haha..

I got nth to do.. Got bored.. As today is really a very boring day.. She kinda forget mi the whole/entire day.. Haiz.. Cos not much reply from her.. Always when I need some one by my side.. There is no one.. When I always need some one.. I am always left alone.. Haiz..

Hope the couples in the world, live happily ever after.. Which I dun think there is such a thing anymore.. Please let mi know if there is any ever lasting love still in the world.. Im tired.. Real Tired already..

Alright emo finish le.. ^^ guess its very long le.. (long n boring helps people to sleep.. hahas).. I will stop here le.. Stay tune ba.. If i see anymore logic about love(which I must find it true), I will post it.. ^^ Take kare people.. Good night..!

Life's starting to get better ???

2008-06-14T23:04:00.004+08:00

Wow.. Went to AMK, eat STEAMBOAT..!! wahaha... Power la.. Its been a long time since I went there to eat le.. MEAT BALL.. hahaha... PRAWN... wahaha.. So nice.. And it is my first meal of the day.. Holy shit.. haha.. Because I was at alvin house playing dota.. Training?? i guess.. haha.. So noob la.. Entire nitez being OWNED by AI+.. WTF.. Dam lame la.. We hit them hair.. But they hit us like dog.. NA BEI..!! lols.. Anyway had quite a lot of fun being trash by computer.. hahas.. Sound so silly.. haha.. TATs ME.. hahas..

Last few days, I like go around singapore.. WTF.. If im not wrong, wednesday I went to skool for fyp.. Then after my fyp meeting with my team mates, I went to TP.. Lol.. Is this call traveling 1 round of singapore.. haha.. theres more.. Silly mi.. I went to TP find WC, to enjoy their food there.. WTF.. their food is dam nice la.. Our skool's?? all i can say is CMI.. lols.. After TP, I acc WC to jurong point.. To SEE?? Secret..! heh!! Then go back to Yishin.. WOw.. Is it 1 round?? haha.. And this routine carry on for like 2 to 3 days.. Wow.. wahaha.. Yesterday friday.. I went out with WC, cause he need to get his laptop fixed before his warrenty finishes.. lol.. We went to chinatown.. then go to PS.. Then take bus to Suntec.. Haha.. Helping WC to shop some "...things".. Shhh.. Its secret again.. haha.. lol.. then went we reach yishun, its around 10.30pm le.. OMG.. then we went to ALvin house play DOTA.. Which mention above.. TRASH..!! haha.. Tonight I am going to stay at home.. Life's been too busy this week.. Its time I take some rest le.. Gonna miss "her" again.. Haiz.. New or Old.. its none of ur business.. hahas.. secret.. hohoho..

Next week starts skool le.. I really hope I can manage to go skool everyday.. Really.. But dunno I can make it anot.. Cos its too tiring le.. Listening to songs now.. EMOing??? unknown.. haha.. ^^

Alright ppl please tag k.. I will reply de.. ^^ DO take kare of urselves (to all my frens).. hahas..
Xiong went to army le.. Gonna miss him too.. He sure dam fit after he finishes his BMT.. hoho.. FIT FLYING BEAR..!

Quoted "crouching turtle, hidden panda, flying bear.. coming up crawling worm.. unseen mouse..

WTF u think wad.. ZOO ar!! Na bei.. haha..

Once upon a time....

2008-06-07T01:57:00.002+08:00

U are jux like an angel that save mi from hell.. I was happy knowing u.. Really.. But today I find that I am actually the main stone that stop u from knowing ur real guy.. So I decided to stay away from u.. U were so good to me.. I dun wanna be a stone that block ur way.. I rather be ur steping stone.. That guide u to ur way.. Make it a smoothest road to let u walk.. And then I shall go back to where im suppose to go(hell).. thanks angel, u were the best.. U make my life so happy..

I am really really scare to fall in love again.. I know love is sweet, and it is the sweetest thing that makes u feel like u r in heaven.. When it comes to breaking.. It is the most painfull thing in the world that makes u feel like u r in hell..

So please love someone, u really love with all ur heart.. Never let that person u love ever break his/her heart..

When u r happy.. Tell the person.. So that the person will feel the same as u.. N u will find happiness..

When u r angry.. Think before u do anything.. Cos I might hurt the person without u knowing it.. Think in why r u angry? And u will find that it is actually a very small thing that make u angry.. And it is not worth to break the person's heart because of small matters..

When u r sad.. Talk to someone, u will maybe feel better.. If u r like me.. Cry alone.. Crying helps.. U will feel better after crying.. Its true, and that is why gals always cry.. Not because they wan u to ke lian/ pity them.. Its because there is something that really make them upset right in their heart..

So please if u r a MAN, do not ever let a women cry because of u.. NEVER.. Protect her and prevent her from any harm.. This is what a man should do..

Be a man n do the right things.. When there is something ur brain cant solve.. Follow ur heart.. And u might find the way to solve it.. (this is to WC).. Follow ur heart..

Single Hood life??

2008-06-05T14:50:00.002+08:00

Wow.. Its been a long long long long long time... ~~~ Seriously I dun even feel like staying at home.. Or even use my laptop le.. Why? I dunno.. Lols..

I watched chocolate (the movie larhz.).. with wei jie, clement..
I watched narnia (also Movie larhz.).. with Debbie, Wei Chiang, Jian Xiong, Clement, and Yi Yun("a new fren"). LOL..

I AM HAVING HOLIDAY.. OK?? WHY MUST EVERY DAY COME SKOOL DE? SIANSATION..

This week monday, my mum woke mi up.. Ask help dunno do what which i forget le.. Then I prepare myself to go to skool.. But then my mum wanted to go see doc cause of her leg problem.. NO ONE IS FREE TO GO.. So I called my filming de team mates, tell them I will be very late.. Then ya I was farking late la... WTH.. I think I reach at 11++am ba.. HOly SHIT..! LOl. Then we Film till around 6pm. Then we went home.

This week tuesday, I overslept.. Omg.. They were kinda angry I know.. Im sorry ok.. Really too tired le.. Today filming was fun and very tiring.. As the things were so heavy.. And we film till around 8pm then stopped.. N then I went to east coast park with WC at around 9pm++.. We went to fetch gals back.. Took cab.. It was fun that night.. really fun la.. Then the gal I send home actually say she wanted to go back only at 12am.. As she told her mum she will be back around the time. So I lol.. Because it makes mi think of cinderalla.. Lol rite? hahas.. Then around 12 I send her home.. MEet up with Wc... We went to 101 to eat.. Hungry Sia.. that time haven eat dinner lehz.. lol.. then we were chatting and eat larhz.. Was fun ok.. Really it was a good day.. Then I acc him wait for bus but no more bus le.. So he took cab back home.. Then I also go home le lor..

Yesterday, I had woke up in the morning, was a little late.. Cos Im WOLS larh.. Lol.. when to my sis house take camera, then went down to take cab to skool.. So rush lehz.. Cos got some scene haven film yet. But that was really fun.. Enjoy filming alot alot alot.. haha.. Then after that MEet up with debbie, but im with Wc larhz.. Then yi yun come.. Then xiong xiong Come.. Hor Hor.. SECRET OK? Their child is call Yi xiong, yun xiong, xiong yi, xiong yun.. LOL.. See this Dun tell ppl ok?

POwer right ??? Omg.. WC is crouching turtle.. Im Hidden Cat.. Xiong is ??
!!!*** FLYING BEAR ***!!!
Dun play play ok.. Lol.. But Jia YOu Jia YOu..!! Add oil Add oil..

Ok forget that.. MYself le.. I was emo larhz.. Because of her? or her? I dunno also le.. Haiz.. SO stresss sia.. Yesterday then I found out that I was HOOK!! SHIT.. Die le la.. Did I fall in love with her? (not u yi yun.. U wont be the her de.. dun worry.) Shit.. I tried to break the HOOK.. But did I failed? Stay Tune?? Toooo Beee Connn Tiii Nueee.. Lol.. I dunno also leh.. Sian.. Im not the old mi le la.. LAst time BGR ( Blue Green Red ).. WTf is this.. I can break n I can love whenever I want.. But now? I sux la.. Shit.. izzit because I too emo le? I wanna be a bad guy.. Good guy no good de.. really.. Cold blooded is good.. Wont feel any pain.. Cause I dun think heart can take any much more pain.. Dying already.. hahas..

I dunno when I cried le.. Forget.. But this week I cried.. Really Cried.. I see the things I think of her.. Who? guess urself.. But guess wad.. she acc mi when I cried.. She also wanna cry.. wth.. Haiz.. maybe this is the time im HOOK..!! Shit... How to remove the Hook??

I tot im ok la.. but end up im only like 50% la.. Lol.. gonna do work liao le... hahahs...